Dear diary ,

nak kahwin ?

2010-06-27T02:36:00.003+08:00

dear Torres ,

why are you so cute ?

so cute that i feel like marrying you ,yknow ?

WILL YOU MARRY ME ?

you are hot but i guess i can only be your mistress since you have already marry Victoria .

I STILL LOVE YOU THOUGH :D

feeling inadequate .

2010-06-22T00:07:00.004+08:00

because of you ,i have to go through this rocky journey .
because of you ,i have lose concentration in everything i do .
because of you ,i no longer know what is my focus in life .
its all because of you .yes ,you .

in the first place ,i shouldn't have let you enter into my life .
in the first place ,i shouldn't have let you steal my heart away .
in the first place ,i should have ignore you .

if i had known that our casual talks would first let to infatuation ,i would avoid you .
if i had known that this infatuation will soon make me feel attached to you ,i would ignored your txts .
if i had known that this whole thing would just hurt me ,i would not let myself fall for you .

it all starts with a smile ,grows with a kiss and end with a tear .

2010-06-20T07:18:00.004+08:00

dear hair ,
i hope you could grow faster and longer .
im already missing my long hair .
pls fulfil this wish of mine .

2010-06-17T22:29:00.002+08:00

hai Dani Qalish .

i miss you .

i miss you very the much yknow .

u have just won urself a room .

2010-06-10T00:24:00.001+08:00

if i could reach up and hold a star for every time you made me smile ,the entire evening sky would be in the palm of my hand .

if only emotions were easy to choose .

2010-06-06T02:47:00.005+08:00

you put me through many emotions .

why eh ?

can tell me the reason why ?

when one is in love ,one always begin by deceiving one's self ,and always ends by deceiving others .

bt wats worst ,one will always tend to deceive herself .

love takes off masks that we fear we cannot live without and know we cannot live within .

dear god ,

if you cn hear me ,pls give me your guidance .

show me the path i nd to choose .

and the decision i nd to make .

amin .

the reason why .

2010-06-03T22:46:00.003+08:00

i hate you .

go away from me .

please go .

go before i love you more than i do in the past .

GO AWAY ,YOU JERK !

AND DONT EVER COME BACK INTO MY LIFE .

bookworm

2010-05-21T13:32:00.002+08:00

nowadays ,reading has been my daily routine .

when i say reading ,it does nt mean reading notes of the respective lessons i had in sch .

i mean reading novels ,be it in english or malay .

nothing will escape frm my hands .

im too engrossed in reading tat at times i tend to be ignorant of my surroundings .

a day without book made me feel very empty .very empty .

it has been my companion ,my entertainer .

well ,of course i love reading novels that involve love ,companion ,family and the sweet and bitter of life .

cos all this reflects my life one way or another .

well ,im a doodlebug now ! :D

cant keep holding on

2010-05-16T00:36:00.002+08:00

There comes a time where each and everything has to be let go.It doesn't mean you'll never meet again to hold back onto it.What's meant to be, will be.

the past doesnt equal to the future .

im letting everything go and start afresh !

and i wonder ..

2010-05-09T02:43:00.002+08:00

few days back ,i had this dream .

a wonderful dream .

it seemed like i was in a paradise then .

with my loved one by my side ,always .

where he would pick me up from school almost everyday .

where we would go study together since both of us are taking our 'O's tis year .

where im proud to be in his heart .

i aint never had anyone make me feel tis way .

well ,whats most surprising was tat he is nt wat you guys he is (he is nt mika) .

wat i rmbr clearly ,was tat i have met him once .

and it onli took me tat one glance at him to make my heart beat very fast .

wat does this mean ?

is it supposed to be a cue tat my past memories is already fading from my heart ?

tat my love for my past is beginning to erase from my mind ?

tat what belongs to my past is being swayed by the waves ?

tat my burning love for my past is turining into ashes ?

wats the meaning behind this dream ?

it seems so real ,so realistic .

maybe its time ...

what is stored in my heart .

2010-04-11T00:42:00.004+08:00

"you ,kenape u cute ?"
"you ,ngah buat ape ?"
"you ,g tdo bodo ."
"you g flush hp you pat jamban pun baek .hahah !"
"you ,kenape kite ade eyebag ?"
"ohh ,patutla mate you rbak ehh .hahah !"
"ily !"
"hello .iffah ade .hahah !"
"cnfrm you nk i ltk phone ?"
"i tk tdo la nari .kn i nk jumpe you pag .tkut nant i tkle bgun ."
"nant kite buat candlelit dinner k .i beli 2 burger pat canteen ,u bawa 1 candle .beh kite jumpe pat bwh blk fr our dinner .heh ."
"you ,nyanyi pls ."
"you pendek siaa !tgk mcm i tinggi ."
"ehh i ade muscle ehh !hahah !"
"you ,sorry la .sorry tau ."
"you ,go and sleep la ."
"ohh menggatal eh ngan laki laen ."(in a joke manner )
"yakinla hanya i untuk you ."
"i rindu you sey ."
"klau i msuk lmbt ,u book i k ."
"goodnite ."

"gdnite" .tats the last word i heard frm him through the phone .
his words are still echoing in my head .
why cant i be wit him huh ??
imissyousoohhmuch .
you are killing me softly .

picturesque .

2010-04-09T20:10:00.004+08:00

aren't im pretty ?heh xD

i dont wanna be the girl who falls hard on the ground because she has fallen out of love and because she has screwed up her studies .

i would rather be the girl who has fallen out of love than the girl who screwed up her studies .

cos ,im used to falling out of love .in fact ,till nw ,im still left hanging in the middle of nowhere .nt knowing as to whether wait upon him or just move on with my life .

ohh well ,love matter dont bother me fr now and im glad its tat way .

cos rite nw wat bothers me the most is my studies .

im reali reali reali afraid of O lvl .

i reali reali reali reali pray and hope tat i could get good grades tat cn make me enter TP or SP .

ya'allah ,sekiranya engkau mendengar permintaan dan rayuan hambamu ini ,kurniakan la segala permintaan daku .amin .

i doubt i will frget you .

2010-03-21T02:35:00.007+08:00

A SIMPLE UPDATE ON MY LIFE THROUGH PICTURES .

happiness requires a lot of efforts .

2010-03-05T21:45:00.003+08:00

updating for like .. a fucking long time .
school has been awfully stressful .
yes ,i'm having a hard time coping with my studies .
the accumulating homeworks day by day ,revisions ,lessons till almost dusk ,tests ,tution- all have been up to my neck .
to add on the burden , i still have 'O' lvl coming up in 7 months .
one word ;PRESSURIZING .
there are times where i would breakdown and cry .
i just cant control my emotions and nerves .
i reali cant .
sometimes ,i just wish tat i could let out all my feelings and emotions to someone who is tightly attach to my heart .
bt i guess tat wont be happening in these nearing months to 'o' lvl .
too busy to find someone special and too tired and lazy to entertain any of those .
anyway ,still cant erase tat prsn frm my mind and heart .
so ,why bother to find someone who cant possibly replace him .
come on kida ,just bear in mind tat 7 months will end before u knw it .
and tat u will have an excellent results fr 'o' which can get u into the of course of Law and Management .

SHARIFAH AKIDAH MOHAMED WILL GET GD GRADES FR O LEVEL ;BELOW 15 PTS .
HE LOVELY LADIES TOO .
WE WLL ALL GO TO THE SAME POLY .

suprised bday party .

2010-02-22T22:08:00.002+08:00

last sat had a surprised bday party which i had no idea of it at all .
they tricked me into playing blindfolded game .
and i was like a moron sitting there waiting fr the cue to start the match .
suddenly ,i heard violin and acoustic guitar being played and people singing the bday song .
there it is ,a cake with my "lady gaga " photo attached on it .
well ,there's a story why people labelled tat photo as the "lady gaga " photo .
afterwhich ,i was called to sit beside my cousin while he played a melodic song wit his violin .

things i got overall fr my bday

ripcurl wallet .
a blue dress frm Zara boutique .
puma shoe .
Topshop $40 voucher .
cash $30 .
necklace .
an elephant soft toy .
a belt frm Cotton On .
candies .

TERIMA KASIH !

2010-02-17T19:52:00.003+08:00

I WANT TO THANK ALL MY FRIENDS AND THOSE WHO WISHED ME TODAY .

I APPRECIATE IT A WHOLE LOT .

ESPECIALLY MY LOVELY LADIES WHO BOUGHT ME CAKE (:

THANK YOU .

SAYAAAANG KRG BYK2 !

YOU GUYS MAKE THE MUNDANE WEDNESDAY INTO A SPECIAL DAY .

YOU REALI DO (:

YOU GUYS REALI MAKE MY DAAAY :D

THANK YOU .

APPARENTLY ,THOSE WHO I DIDNT EXPECT TO RMBR MY BDAY WISHED ME !

YEAY !HAHAH .

OKAAY ,TIS YR RAFHAN DIDNT WISH ME .

THEREFORE ,IM FEELING A LITTLE BIT DOWN .

I GUESS I MISS HIM LA HORH .

NEHMIND ~

THANK YOU ONCE AGAIN !

charitable chan .

2010-01-27T21:10:00.002+08:00

let it all fly high up in the sky .

school was okaay .

bt ,im starting to become like a pig ,again .

all i did was eat ,do hw ,sleep den go school .

i have nt been going out fr the whole of January !

do you get wat it mean ?!

it means tat tis Saturdaaaay i have to wind up !!

jyeaah !going out wit Bimbo tis sat .

at the same time ,we gonna buy books and assesments for our upcoming tuition which officially start next fri (5/2/10) .

credit goes to Afiq who recommended his friend to coach us .

ohh ,im craving fr donuts !

so bimbo ,lets go eat donuts tis Sat ayeeer ^_^ .

u were once my limelight .

2010-01-24T03:01:00.003+08:00

u were my hero back then .

well ,nothing significant been happening .
last friday bumped into this ex of mine (:
did some catching up and all .
he gt 19 points fr his 'O' .
ass him -.-
haha .
he's a good guy ,im the bad girl .
im the one tat broke his heart :/
bt hey !we are still friends oke :P
and im glad we still do .

bracing up the cold night .

2010-01-18T17:09:00.003+08:00

all i hope for is for you to find me who's lost along the journey .

well ,slacked wit nana ,nyimas ,halifi and sayyid just nw .

fyra went back home to take her tights coz she's too old to rmbr bringing it -.- .

den ,saw my sweetheart Rara (:

i was like "Rara !!!! "*den waved at her like a mad girl * .

heh ,i just missed her truckloads ! :D

its been ages since we last meet .

and yeah ,nana and nyimas tot i was waving at those "lifespirit" clique .

hell no !hello !am i tat blind as to wave at them ?!

stop it siaa krg .hahah !

to you ,i still love you though .

bt watever it is ,be happy wit tat prsn yah .

as lng as you're happy ,im happy .

to love you is to see u happy and smile .

tats all i need .

wat i desires for .

2010-01-17T23:28:00.004+08:00

I HAVE BEEN CRAVING FOR RIPCURL WALLET !SO TUN TEJAH ,U KNW WAT U SHOULD BUY FR ME FOR MY BDAE .I WANT TIS PRESENT FRM YOU ALONE .NO SHARING OF MONEY WIT OTHER PEOPLE OKAAY !
DONT WORI ,ITS NT TAT EXPENSIVE :D

obsession

2010-01-17T23:07:00.002+08:00

hello panda ^^
okaay ,i guess apple disagree wit my statement on the previous post .
bt hey !its true oke !
there's someone out there who loves you :P
heh .

anw ,chat wit my long lost fren ,Fathin Aerlisa .
Gosh !miss her truckloads !
she's cute ,just like me :P
and and !she gt A1 fr her malay o lvl !
happy fr u my dear (:

TO RARA ,I MISS YOU TOO !A WHOLE LOTS :(

shorty is wat the guys call me .

2010-01-15T22:41:00.003+08:00

I HATE AHMAD NURSHANIQ FOR LAUGHING AT MY HEIGHT !
I KNOW U ARE TALLER THAN ME .
PFFFT .
TAT IDIOTIC RAFIQ IS ASLO CALLING ME 'SHORTY' .
HW SAD IS TAT .

am i reali tat short ?
no right ?

momento .

2010-01-15T19:15:00.003+08:00

hey ,i knw i haf nt update fr quite a while .

sorry for that .
been busy wit school lately .
yeah ,believe it or nt ,i haf been an obedient and hardworking girl who does her work all the time .
tis yr ,im gonna haf a clean record wit all the teachers .
except fr the fact tat i was caught fr my coloured hair -.-
surprisingly ,i haf been awfully hardworking in doing my maths work !
thumbs up ! :D
well ,its nt only me but the whole class !
i tink ,one of the reason is tat we love our maths teacher too much ^_^

put school aside ,i shall talk bout my life nw .
i tink ,i no longer need a guy in my life ,fr nw .
coz being in love means hurt .
and i cant stomach the pains i haf to go through after being wounded .
no ,im nt a strong girl .
my love life is nt as beautiful and as wonderful it seemed to be .
maybe ..im nt as lucky as nana ,nyimas or even fyra .
they each haf a guy to love them .
yet ,i dont even feel downhearted .
i knw tat i haf exhausted all my love to someone .
love expect no returns .
and i haf always believe tat the moments captured wit the loved one is the most priceless gift fr me .
i haf no regrets .

the beginning of eternity ,

the end of time and space ,

the beginning of every end ,

and the end of every place .

post fr today .

2010-01-11T18:16:00.003+08:00

today ,'O' lvl results are out .
and we ,the graduating classes attended it so tat we cn look at the expressions of students taking their results .
congrats to AINI ,who haf gotten 16 points .
she must be super duper elated ! :D

and ,we had height and weight measurement .
i didnt grow at all :(
i cheated just now ,i tiptoed .
still ,my height is only 159cm .
how sad is tat .
haiyak !
the most depressing part is tat i gained 3 fucking kg !
see wat happens wen all u did was rotting at home like a pig !
now ,i reali feel like a pig -.-
i tink ..i will start working out wit afiq since he will be having his IPPT on Feb .
so afiq ,lets start tis Saturday ,pleaseeee .

now ,chatting wit Adil and Zainul .
tis idiotic adil made me mad ,whole time .
he cheated my feelings ! :(
he knws ,i knw bt public dont knw .
and nw im very very the sad yknw .
tendang kau baru tahu .
hahah !
and zainul says i look cute wit short hair :P

thurday ,friday .

2010-01-11T17:24:00.005+08:00

THURSDAY(07/1/2010) ,

went to parkway parade wit mum ,bro and afiq .
bought few things there .
bought 2 portable DVD players fr our cars since dad asked to .
afterwhich ,went to giant the mighty ,giant saving !hehhehh .
bought grocery stuffs .
bro and i each bought fbt short and shirt !
hehhehehehh ^^

pictures of us sitting in front of the office the whole day .

FRIDAY (08/1/2010) ,

basically ,me ,apple ,nana ,wan ,ahlina and sme of our classmates did nothing .

all we did was sit ,talk ,laugh ,walk ,talk ,laugh ,talk ,laugh and it went on and on .

yes ,we just sat in front of the office ,guarding it -.-

thx to our rooster hair tat made the DM feel like picking on us -.-

we escaped at 11.45 am .

our dear chemistry teacher smuggled us to the chem lab .

i just love her !

no ,we just love her ! ^^

she saved the day :D

(pictures above)

boredom

2010-01-07T13:33:00.003+08:00

okaay ,im bored .
didnt attend school today .heh .
i woke up fresh and vibrant today !
anw ,dad gave me $54 today !
i was jumping on my feet until he said tat he took $14 frm my piggybank .
so ,tat $54 include the money he took frm my piggybank -.-
ass him .haha !
bt ,nehmind .
my profit is still big .
and and !the clothes i bought online has arrived !
wooohooo !
i especially love the purple dress ^_^ !
there's a total of 5 clothes .
mum planning to buy online ,again .
i will take tis chance into my hands !
so mum ,dont blame me if ur pocket has a hole in it .heh :P

happy birthday ,fauzi !

2010-01-07T13:25:00.002+08:00

yesterday was apple's twinny birthday .

HAPPY 16th FAUZI (:

da besar eh die .haha .

finally ,he's able to watch nc16 movie .

next will be apple .

den ,will be my turn .heheh .

cheers for the friendship we build fr the past 2 yrs plus !

happy bithday ,aini !

2010-01-05T22:12:00.003+08:00

see the beautiful auntie beside me ?

its her bdae today !

HAPPY 17th BITHDAY TO YOU ,AINI ! :D

be happy and cheerfool always yah !

she's my lovely lady .

any one mess wit her ,means tat prsn is messing wit me too !

SAYAAAAANG KAU BANYAK2 SEKALI ! :D

school season

2010-01-04T20:39:00.005+08:00

wake up call in the morning !!
school has officially open today (4/1/2010) .
yesterday ,i can onli close my eyes at 3 am and i haf to wake at 6 am . -.-
and tat khairul texted me saying "selamat sekolah !wakakaka !" .
ohh ,mentang-mentang da graduate ,nk kerek eh ..
tendang baru tahuu .idiot .hahha !
yeah ,i dread going to school bt tat attitude wont last tat long .
wanna knw whyy ?
coz someone dearly to me is still in tis sch and maybe graduate on the same yr . ^_^
finally ,i get to meet my lovely ladie again .
i miss them truckloads !skrg da bole lpskn rinduuu !!
okaay ,its 9 pm and i tink ..i wanna sleep rite nw .
my eyes are alr half open .
byebye .

saiful saiful saiful

2010-01-03T04:22:00.002+08:00

pardon me fr being so forgetful .
i totally forgot bout my saiful .haha !
so ,webcammed wit him after countdown .
ended it at around 4am .
so ,here are the pictures .

countdown ,no .

2010-01-03T03:53:00.003+08:00

since sedare aku yg cute tu srh kida update blog ,i shall then update it .
didnt celebrate countdown .
no frigging mood to celebrate it .
apple's twinny was the first to text me (:
very shocking indeed .haha .

(see above picture )

though i didnt go fr countdwn ,i celebrated it wit my lil sweetheart ,fizah ,through msn (:

she said she misses me ,alot !

she miss sleeping wit me too ! :D

aww ,i miss you too syg !

it just sucks

2009-12-30T01:56:00.003+08:00

school is opening real fucking soon horh !
'O's is just few months away !
damn !it sent chills down my spine !
im aiming fr MI or POLY .
bt ,cn i reali make it ?
wit my poor math results ?
haiya !
im looking fr a tutor and maybe afiq gonna help me find one .
i hope khairul did not frget his promise to help me wit my math !
im gonna remind him today .
tkmo lupe ayeeer khairul .heh .
i nd to get used to sleeping again .
i hate tis part ,reali .
i haf been sleeping 6-9am in the morning .
how the fcuking hell am i gonna sleep early again .
nd some practice ,i guess -.-

i feel like changing my blogskin bt im just too lazy to browse .
heh .
will change soon ayeeer :D

ohh ,i dont tink im going fr countdown tis yr :(
nana has ask me to tag along wit her and hafiz fr countdown .
bt then ,i will be the lampost siaa .
i will feel very the awkward .
they are couple and im left with no partner .
so sad :(
furthermore more ,no mood fr countdown ar .
im always single on every countdown .
haiya ~~
so guys ,who want to be my boyfren please let me knw .
i will gif u a form fr u to fill .
cheyyy !
kida tk tahu malu siaa !
HAHAHAH !
im just joking oke !

taiwan guys are hot !

2009-12-29T06:19:00.002+08:00

its alr 6 plus am and im still nt sleeping .
guess wat i did whole night .
i haf been watching taiwan drama at youtube .
omg !i tink im falling in love wit taiwan drama and the guys !
and one of them is Wu Chun ^_^ !
he's so damn cute and hot hot heat !
there's another guy too bt sadly ,i dont knw his real name . ):
okay ,wanna continue watching video at youtube .
chao !

walking marathon

2009-12-28T22:56:00.002+08:00

had a day out wit nana and the two idiots ,afiq and yazid .
i had a great time !
reali ,i was giggling and laughing my guts out .
first we went to Bugis Junction followed by Iluma(lots of flashback at iluma ) .
then ,we off to Suntec Convention City (was hoping to bump into him again ,bt no .haha ) .
last ,we proceeded to Marina Flyers !
we had free Gelatos ,as always !haha !
i had withdrew $30 frm my accnt and i had used none .
they foot my bill all -.-
it irritates me alot coz wenever i wanna fork out money ,they wouldnt let me so .
their reasons were always the same .
"kau da teman aku kn ,so aku blanje kau k "-nana .
"kau tkya byr pape k .biar kite jek yg blanje kau .kau kn yg paling kecil "-afiq and yazid .
they made me feel so small -.-
sometimes ,i still love it though .hahah ! :p

errmm ..wat shall i update on ..
ohh ,yesterday we had a movie marathon .
i knocked off at 3 am while the rest at arnd 6 am ,i tink .

okaaay ,my mind is blank .
will upload the photos soon k .

bored bored bored

2009-12-25T03:47:00.003+08:00

I MISS MY LONG HAIR . :'(
okaaay ,i cn hardly sleep now .
its 4 am and no one is sleeping nw .
everyone is doing their own thing .
some are downstairs ,watching tv .
while the rest are busy chatting away at the rooms ,upstairs .
mama bought new LCD tv as my superslim LG has gone kapoot . u haf no idea hw much i love the new tv in the living room .
i tink ..i nd to do some electronic shopping wit my mum .
i want to buy new camera ,new wardrobe and many many more !
yesterday ,me and my mum cleared our wardrobe .
onli den i realised hw much clothes i have and there's some still left untouch .
Zara shirt afiq gave me is still left hanging and untouch .
and i still have the cheek to say i lack of clothes .heh .

papa ,i want that rip curl bag .
buy fr me ,please ?

burung da terlps dari sangkar

2009-12-25T03:00:00.007+08:00

finally !i went out on christmas eve wit my bitchy cousy ,teja !
yes ,i spend the day at the town area .
i covered the WHOLE of orchard .
and trust me ,wen i say whole ,i mean all of the shopping centres at orchard .
we had pastamania for lunch !
hurhur !
my cravings has one less now .
haha !
at around 7 plus ,we headed to marina square followed by suntec .
u're nt gonna believe tis .
i bumped into M_K_ !!!
TWO FUGGING TIMES OKE !
oke ,im missing him ,now !
urrghh !
tot of buying donuts at suntec there .
sadly ,everything was sold out .
then ,teja recommended some kind of yoghurt mix wit cookies or smth .
it looked disgusting bt the taste was superb !
reached home at arnd 11 plus ,i tink ?
here are some pictures .

panda ,is my name ?

2009-12-23T03:50:00.003+08:00

cant go to sleeeeeeeep !
i wanna sleep bt im nt even sleepy .
im so oh bored .
its alr 4 in the mrng .
tell me tell me ,what shall i do nw ?
clean my 2-storey house ?
where shall i start frm ?
upper deck or lower deck ?
what shall i clean first ?
im so gonna clean my house .
and mama is so gonna be happy wit me .
coz im aint a lazy girl anymore . :D
i wanna clean my house bt i dont knw where to start .
wanna go to sch bt i caaaaant coz of the so-called 'quarantined' . -.-
well ,at 5 i shall start all the spring cleaning .
afterall ,nana's engagement is going to be held at my house tis sat .
which means ,my house haf to be super duper clean and well decorate !
nt to forget ,bole cuci mate skit !
cute and hot hot dudes will be there u see .
hurhur !

ohh ,my beloved nana is gonna engage in 3 days time .
im happy for her (:
her marriage will be in 4 yrs time ,insyallah .
and guess wat i will be ? *kening naek kening naek *
hope tat she will still haf time fr us ayeeeer .
I LOVE YOU :D

my idiotic brother is in the same school as me now .
haf to endure fr just one yr .
come on kida ,one mre yr and u're gone frm tat sch .

ADIL ADIL ADIL

2009-12-23T02:02:00.003+08:00

had a chat wit my sweetheart ADIL .

HAHAH !

this idiot made me laugh my guts out !

he knws ,i knw bt public dont knw .

kn adil kn ?!

haha !

he want me to go to sch today fr sec 1 registration .

coz he miss me damn much !
i repeat eh ,HE MISS ME !
hahah !
sadly ,i cant .
im on mc fr 2 freaking days !
damn !

i apologised to my teachers ;mrs yeow and mr chua/mr yong fr nt attending all the activities frm mon to wed .
i didnt meant to skip it .
i knw its important .
sry fr tat .
i haf mc if u dont believe me .

i feel so fcuked up .
cant go out for this week !
urrgggh !
dear sickness ,go away ,will you ?
please please please .
i wanna go out !
i have been staying at home since im back frm Hong Kong !
haiyak haiyak haiyak !

hey ,i knw u are mad ,upset and all .bt ,pull this through k .

i knw u cn do it .u're strong little girl .

u're my bimbo ,rmbr ?and my bimbo my always be a strg gal .

he made my day .

2009-12-22T02:44:00.002+08:00

cant go to sleep .

and here i am chatting wit khairul .

i had fun chatting wit him .

its been ages since we last chat wit each oth .

bt ,nothing change .

its still the same old khairul and same old kida .

well ,im glad tat its still the same . (:

its been a while since i smiled frm ear to ear and he made me so today !

hahah !

and now ,i tink he's angry wit me ?or maybe he's sulking right now ?

errr :/

gone

2009-12-22T02:31:00.003+08:00

gone .

10 mths 10 days are gone ,just like that .

see wat i mean nw guys ,history is just repeating itself .

the actor change bt the setting and ending is still the same .

well ,im tired of all this things .

i reali do .

it left me hanging .

i used to be an ignorant fool who just waited on u .

bt ,nt animore .

i dont wanna see myself drunk in heartaches .

im ending it ,now .

we stood miles apart ,bt its over now .

2009-12-20T06:37:00.001+08:00

I HAD MY HAIR CUT SHORT !

err ,what shall i say ?

2009-12-18T12:53:00.011+08:00

HELLO ,IM BACK ! :D
do you miss me ?!
dont lie ,i knw u do !haha !
well ,im back frm Hong Kong last 2 days (wed) .
i thought its gonna be my mum and my dad who will pick me up frm the airport .
to my surprise ,my bro ,aniq ,fat and even afiq picked me up !
a whole lot of people huh .two cars u see !haha !
and and !ajid miss me ,a lot !woohoo !
tis is wat he said wen he slacked at my hse "alaa ,kida tkde tk best siaa !"
he miss me he miss me he miss me !
even my iditic bro miss me !
EVERYONE IS MISSING ME !
amek kau !HAHAHHAH !

okay ,tis was where i went during my stay in Hong Kong :

day one .

Old and New Hong Kong walk tour eg. shops along Hollywood Road etc .
Coach View for Fire Station .
Tram Ride to Victoria Peak .

day two .

WHOLE DAY AT DISNEYLAND !

day three .

Hong Kong museum of coastal defence .
HKUGA College .
Shopping at Ladies market !

day four .

Mongkok police station .
Traffic Kowloon West Base .
Mongkok Junior Police Call Club House .
Sir Ellis Kandoorie Secondary School (lotsa cute hothot guys yknow !)
Avenue of star with symphony of lights (cancelled due to heavy rains )

day five .

OCEAN PARK !
HK airport .
Changi airport .
Home Sweet Home .

im lazy to uplaod all of the pictures .however ,here are some pictures fr u to look at .overall ,I HAD LOTSA FUN ! :D

"N" LEVEL RESULTS ARE OUT TODAY !

GOOD LUCK GUYS !

hong kong

2009-12-12T02:41:00.003+08:00

time check :2.42 am .

i had a sleepless night .
i tried to force myself to sleep .
yet ,it backfire .
im gg off soon and still ,i cant close my eyes .
i tossed and turned on the bed ,yet i cant get to sleep .
why eh ?
there's kinda a mix feeling of excited and apprehensive .
well ,nt everyone haf the chance to go hong kong like i do .
mayb tats the reason why im feeling excited .
still ,lots of things been running through my mind .
i dont knw la .
nvm .ignore everything i said .

Hong Kong ,here i come .

ps :will be back in 5 days(wed) .

will you miss me ?

2009-12-11T17:25:00.002+08:00

time check :5.30 pm .
11 hrs to go .
lets countdown .

AFIQ IS PLAYING THE CAGE RITE NOW .

WISHING HIM GOOD LUCK .

CONFIRM KALAH !HAHAHA !

SEE YOU LATER ,LAHABAU ! :P

countdown

2009-12-10T03:08:00.004+08:00

i haf packed half of my clothings and stuff them into the luggage .
im half-hearted to go to HK nw .
wit my grandpa in the hospital .well ,thank god its notin srious (:
im gonna miss a lot of people .
especially my lovely ladies ,beloved cousins and family .
lets countdown to saturday .

well ,supposed to go to the zoo today as planned .

sadly ,it was cancel due to some reasons .

its oke ,i understand the situation well enough (:

and now ,Fyra will be going there wit her outside frens .

damn u !ass .haha !

i dont care .i still wanna go zoo !

dear someone ,take me to the zoo ,will you ?
anyone willing to bring me to the zoo ?hello ?
i will be reali grateful to you .heh .

mosquitos bites !

2009-12-09T01:25:00.004+08:00

heyheyhey my lovely pandas !

well ,totally forgot to update bout my outing wit my lovely ladies plus syabeel !

went to watch new moon .

the movie was filled up with full of emotions .

however ,the ending sucks !

wen i said sucks ,i mean reali damn sucks !

it was so abrupt ,i guess ?
overall ,it is nice movie to watch wit ur loved ones !^^

hockey

2009-12-07T23:48:00.004+08:00

i was at the Tampiness MRT when i saw a bunch of hockey players .

HELLO !its HOCKEY okaaaay !

nt some netball ,badminton or watsoever .

MY MOST FAVOURITE CCA !

i miss playing hockey a loooot !

i miss it more than anything .

especially wen u're playing right defend .haha !

havent touch the hockey stick fr such a long long time horh .

sadly ,my current school doesnt take hockey fr CCA .

im thinking of joining a club ,maybe .

i haf all the equipment prepared .

i could just use afiq's hockey stick la horh .

well u see ,we both used to play hockey .

bt ,the diff between us is tat he love floorball more than hockey unlike me .

so ,using his stick shouldnt be any problem .

okaaay ,im starting to daydreaming ,agaaaaain .

when the hell am i going to find the time to play hockey now .

will try to find time after "O" la horh .

okay ,tis post is reali random -___-

2009-12-04T03:01:00.003+08:00

eye can never dry .never .

im tired of waiting .

will it end this way ?

what shall i do ?

2009-12-02T23:33:00.003+08:00

i knw my blog have been dead fr a quite a while .
i apologise fr tat .
sorry ayeer .heh .
im feeling EMPTY ,just like nana horh .
haiyak ~!

strangely ..yesterday ,i dreamt bout K____ A_____ .
in tat dream ,he's being such a sweetheart .awww ..
forget bout the dream ,even in real life he's such a sweetheart .
however ,tat was all last year horh .
okaay ,im starting to miss 2008 a whole lot more !!
camne ni ?!
hiakdush !

OHH ,NYIMAS DPT BABY BROTHER SEYY ! :D

HELLO !I MISS FARZANA ,NYIMAS ,MUSFIRAH AND ________ .

gone

2009-11-26T01:12:00.001+08:00

countless of teardrops have dried for you ;

when will i stop missing him ?

it does not make me feel any better .

help me ,will you ?

err ..

2009-11-24T14:27:00.003+08:00

y :kau sial la .sape2 jad matae kau ke kwn kau ke cnfrm ketawe jek sak !
k :kenape pula ?
y :kau kelakar bodo !dari tad siaa aku ketawe !*laughing*
k :ohh well ..standard ,kida mah .haha !
y :ohh well ..standard ,kida mah .(mimicking my voice and laughing )
ASS HIM .

y :eh ,kau tknk ade matae ke ?
k :nope ,aku da rilek ar .haha !
y :asl siaa ?
k :mls la siaa ..nant ade matae tkde freedom siaa .no freedom to make frens wit anyone horh .
y :betul betul ..i just love the way u're thinking .umur kau baru 15 tap pemikiran kau da mcm 18 sial !
k :sial ar kau !aku msih muda oke !
y :laughing non-stop .

here are some of the conversation i had wit yazid last sunday ,4:00 am .

i have been lazing around at home .
currently ,feeling too lazy to go anywhere .
i feel like a piglet .haha !

and ohh !its hard to believe that KHAIRUL AMRIEN knw NAZLY ..

that stupid Nazly told everything (i tink ) bout me .

ass that Nazly . -.-

budak tingkat 4 eh Khairul ..

tendang baru tahu .haha !

what a small world siaa !

and everytime ,im the one who's gonna miserable .

urrgh .

east coast

2009-11-22T00:27:00.005+08:00

went to East Coast yesterday with nana ,ajid ,afiq ,teja and nasriyah .

sriously ,we had lots of fun !

hurhur ! ^^

err ..im lazy to elaborate more on it .heh .

kite kite :)

ajid and nana .

candid !

afiq .

the femme .

SENTOSA

2009-11-20T23:33:00.003+08:00

SENTOSA OUTING WAS FUCKING HELL FUN !
REALLY ENJOYED THE DAY TODAY !
WELL ,THE PLAN DIDNT COCKED-UP .
I THANK GOD FOR THAT :D

had a long list ahead

2009-11-19T15:31:00.003+08:00

i missing quite a number of people alr horh .
i miss my old schoolmates .
lol .random .

so ,didnt attend school today due to laziness .
kida standard .buat tu kola mcm bpk kida ade share gtu eh .
haha ! :D
nyimas and fyra too didnt attend sch today .
i tink ,i knw why me ,fyra ,nana & nyimas cn knock it off well & become bestfrens .
i tink its because we have lots of things in common .
be it attitude ,laziness ,hyperness ,relationship etc .
we cn go as wild and as crazy as we cn .
we dont reali feel embarrassed to do anything stupid even if in public .
as fr relationship ..no matter hw many relationships we had ,we still love tat one particular prsn and tat no one could possibly be replaced .
i repeat ,NO ONE COULD POSSIBLY BE REPLACED .
cant wait to go out with them !
im gonna keep myself free fr the whole of next wk specially for my girlfeys :D

okaay ,tomorrow gonna go picnic at Sentosa !hurhur !
going there wit fyra ,wan & fauzi .
mcm double date gtu eh ..haha !
bt nah ~tis is just a so-called reunion picnic fr the four of us .
coz its been a frigging long time since we last hang out together .
gosh !miss those times .haiyak !
make sure this time jad eh !
klau tk ,fyra and kida will be fuming mad at those two badigols !
tis time we will be .
pray hard tat tis plan wont foil .
*fingers crossed*

SATURDAY ,
outing wit my beloved cousins ;nana ,ajid ,tejaa ,afiq & nasriyah .
weeeee ! :D

I WANNA GO SHOPPING !anyone ?
IM HUNGRY !I WANNA GO AND EAT RIGHT NOW !
laparlaparlaparlaparlaparlapar !grr !

condolence

2009-11-17T23:23:00.003+08:00

To Nazif & Family ,

heard bout the tragedy .

my condolence to you and family .

you just have to let him go .

maybe God love him more .

dont dwell on it too much .

dont be too sad ,coz ur loved ones too will be sad .

i know you ,u're strong .

im sure u will be able to overcome this .

be strong and cheer up kay :)

second post

2009-11-16T21:01:00.003+08:00

The thing about love is, you’ll never see it coming. It’s always unexpected. You’ll have to let it come running to you. You can never force yourself to love. It’s impossible.

And once you start loving someone so deeply, it’s almost impossible to stop despite how hard you try to. You’ll then try to forget about him by letting someone new into your life. You may forget, but just for a moment. Then you’ll realise that it was so stupid of you to do that. You’ll then regret cos you tried too hard. Cos you did something that you know is not possible and you’ve hurt yourself in the progress of doing it.

-anana cinta banana .

its sad wen people u know become people u knew .

wen u cn walk past someone like they were never a big part of ur life .

how u used to be able to talk fr hours and hw nw ,u cn barely even look at them .

wat do i really want ?

i tried to seek deep dwn in hart ,yet i still couldnt find the ans .

i thought ..thought tat i haf alr forgotten bout "him " and the past .

well ,i guess im wrong huh ..

my mind is in a whirl .it reali do .

the minute i look at tat someone ,i felt a sharp knife being stabbed countless times in my hart .

i mean like really ..hw i wish i could just pounce towrds her and disfigure her face .

sounds ruthless ,isnt it .

stupid la kida .

kenape jadi manusia bodo sgt ni kida .

urrggh !lets just forget bout all this fcuking thing .

talking craps is my forte

2009-11-16T20:50:00.003+08:00

attended bridging lesson though i felt damn lazy to go .
its all coz i miss my girlfriends and was meeting J .
i sacrificed a lot fr them ,didnt i ?cheyy !haha !
never did i expect tat he would nagged at me bout my studies .
ass .haha !he really sounded like my dad siaa !haha !
did some of mt qns while wit him .
coz he himself was revising some kind of notes on coffee fr his test today frm 8-11 pm .
bt i cant focused on the paper so i put it straight in my bag .
talk craps wit him ,as always .heh .
den ,he send me to the bus stop due to the tiredness i had .
ohh ,someone was frigging LATE just nw tat i was kept waited fr 30 mins !

lethargic

2009-11-15T00:54:00.004+08:00

well ,i haf just came back from NACLI camp yesterday .
i swear im still feeling lethargic ,though we were like having holiday .
yes ,we slept in an airconditioned room ,with beds and alll .
just like any hotel rooms .
still ,i had fuuun !
and believe it or nt ,i danced bollywood style when we had our SLC concert there .
i mean like ..cn u believe it !haha !
well at least all girls in my group danced too .
we are very spontaneous i tell u .
shall nt elaborate more .
let the pictures do the talking k .
AND ,I MISS MY GIRLFRIENDS ALOT :'( !
THEY MISS ME TOO !

my scandal !haha !

she's my partner for the whole of three days ,yuan yiing ! :)

my boyfriend during the camp !haha !

when boredom strikes .

rina and kerry :)

yuan yiing :)

ignore them ,adore us (kida & yuan yiing ) .haha .

my group ,the BOOMZ !

NACLI LEVEL 2 students .

WILL UPLOAD THE REST AFTER NADIA HAS SEND ME THE PICTURES AITE !

chelsea :D

2009-11-10T15:47:00.002+08:00

lets have a simple update .

SUNDAY ,

well ,chelsea won to man utd !
i say yaaaay for tat ! :D
terry's heading was fabulous !
i just loveee him !heh .
sadly ,DROGBA was injured :(
but !at least chelsea kicked the ass of man utd !
man utd have just lost its glory ,SODEH !
haha !
and fyra ,u do have good taste unlike afiq !
afiq is an ass ,hahah ! :P

TODAY ,

i had a great day today .i reali do .
with all the jokes and giggles we had during lessons .
especially during history lesson ,it was fun .
where nyimas ,nana and myself will daydream and talked bout the guy we wanted to marry .
nyimas wanna marry tis guy called samsul yusof .
nana wanna marry aaacin .
as for me ,there will be no ending as to who i wanna marry !haha ! :P

though i had all the fun today .
i do feel a little moody .

"kn i dh prnh blg u yg bile ____ mintak num kidah ,die save pat hp i ."

nana knw it ,public dont knw .
i miss those times ..
sriously . :'(

friday

2009-11-08T00:38:00.002+08:00

i feel contented for now :D

i say ,J & A !

2009-11-04T23:14:00.004+08:00

tis idiotic brother of mine has gone for his overseas trip with his class today mrng .

my home has become quite .

coz my mum will nt hear any fight or quarrel fr three days !

well ,at least i will be peaceful .haha !

okaay ,i will miss calling him "ketot " .

hahah !jahaat eh kida !

klau kakaknyee jahat ,ape lag adek nyee kn !

see !he too loves to hail out his tongue ,just like me !

he will be back tis friday .

bt too bad ,i wont be there to wait fr ur arrival ketot ,coz im going out !

i hope so -.-

YESTERDAY ,

i was on cloud nine !hurhur ^^

someone said something tat make me smiled frm ear to ear .

i say yaaaay fr tat ! :D

and ohh ,i had fun today !

in fact ,lots of fuuuun ! :D

silly me

2009-11-02T15:08:00.003+08:00

one minute you're here ,anonther minute you're gone .

first thing first ,i would like to wish my babes ,fyra ,nyimas ,nana and kyn all the best for their reexam this week .

make sure krg sume kene pass eh !

tk pass ,kene penampar ngan kida !chey !

i nd u guys with me along the rocky road .i reali do .

without u guys ,i will be lost in the forest ,waiting for the tigers to pounce at me .

so ,blaja betul betul and pass the paper :)

syg krg !

okaay ,today believe it or nt ,i attended the bridging lesson -.-

well ,actually wen bro wake me up ,i intended nt to go for the bridging lesson .

so tat i could go back to my precious sleep and be in lalaland .

then ,somehow ,i could nt close my eyes .

i twisted and turned on my bed ,yet i cant fall asleep .

so ,i decided to go fr the lesson though im 30 mins late .

idiotic eh .

it was a gd thing tat i attended the lesson coz it kills time .

well ,at least im nt bored wit CHEMISTRY ,MT and HISTORY lesson :)

however ,in the midst of every lessons ,i sense cetain sadness in myself .

coz ,it reminds me of "him" .

i rmbred during the bridging lessons which lasted fr 2 wks ,"he" would wait fr me at the end of the day .

worst ,our first meeting was on the first day of bridging lesson .

i regretted attending the first day of bridging lesson .

bleargh -.-

bleargh

2009-11-01T14:38:00.003+08:00

didnt went out this weekend .
supposed to went out today with teja .
bt ,im nt feeling that well and my body is aching .
sorry ayeer .
so ,i stayed at home like a good ,obedient girl .heh .
i had a movie marathon with afiq yesterday till 4 in the mrng .
and now ,still we are still having that movie marathon -.-
k2 ,i wanna get back to my movie marathon .
selamat !

expecting it

2009-10-31T01:23:00.007+08:00

nowadays ,things just doesnt go my way .
im supposed to go out wit ___ today .
yet ,it was cancel off coz he need to go to work .
dont even knw if tats the truth ,bt i believe him .
this thing has been cancel for i-dont-knw-hw-many-times .
then ,he said we'll be going out next wk .
so ,i wonder if its gonna happen or otherwise .
like i said to him ,i had alr expected it to happen .
so yeah .

somehow ,i feel that everything's been going against me .
coz the outcomes isnt very pleasant ,for me .
it reali kept me thinking .
thinking whether this "relationship" will be able to hold on .
and keep us closer each day or drift us apart .
its been 8 mths and 19 days since we knw each oth .
i dont even knw hw long i cn withold this .
all im hoping for ,is tat it wont be like last yr (if u knw wat im talking bout) .
pray for me .

i want to be the girl who is behind the glass door .
where im nt easy to be touched or hurt .
and ,onli certain people cn own me .

my love and heart are only for deserving man .
not for games to be gamble with .

what matters ;

2009-10-28T14:50:00.007+08:00

it cn make u smile for the rest of ur life ,bt it cn also make u cry fr the rest of ur life .
it's foolish of us to take the risk ,and even plunge further into the river of love when we knw we are going to drawn in sorrow .
we will be contented ,even wit two hrs of tears alone ,just fr tat one second of kiss wit the one we love .

why are gals so foolish as to believe each and every wrds tat come out of the guy's mouth ?
and to be ignorant even when we knw tat they are lying to us ?
why do we think of him everyday ,want to see him every single second ,make him smile every single minute ,make him laugh every single hr ?
u knw wat ,no one cn answer tis question ,for its a rhetorical qn .
a qn without an answer .

sometimes ,we are afraid to point out his mistake ,coz we are afraid tat it would turn into a quarrel ,as a result he left us .
for we could nt imagine life without him ;meaningless and empty .
we would listen to his every wish ;silly and logical .
we would grant his wish ,though sometimes it's beyond our reach .

tis is exactly how i felt then .
and how i feel now .
its beyond description .

in the past ,i would always believe "his" wrds and love "him" like there's no tmr .
though our status was not clear then ,i ignored other guys and gave all of my attention to "him" ,onli to "him" .
i rejected many and waited on "him" .
yet ,i fell into a deep hole of sorrows .
and nw ,we are strangers ;aloof strangers .

present ,i wonder if i should believe every wrds like i used to in the past .
i wonder if i should give my all like i used to in the past .
i dont knw if i should give my trust like i used to in the past .
i dont even knw the stirred feelings im having rite nw .
u cn say tat i'm like a traveller ,choosing the path tat she should take on to continue her journey .

still ,i have to make a choice .
a choice on whether to continue the journey or to turn back .
whether to move on or to keep hanging to the past .

history may repeat itself ~

waiting .

2009-10-27T22:49:00.001+08:00

THINKING OF THE POSSIBILITIES .
AND WHAT IS THE POSSIBILITIES ?

to forget you is not to remember you .
and how is that ?

MOHAMED DAN YUSOF

2009-10-23T15:43:00.003+08:00

this pictures were taken long ago .celebrated my dad ,MOHAMED BIN ALI and teja ,aniq and afiq's dad ,ABDUL YUSOF BIN DAUD 's birthday on the first day of raye at my crib .we bought for both of them the same things .dad gt esprit tshirt and puma watch while uncle gt g2000 tshirt n piere cardin watch .i just lovee both of them ! :D

2nd day raye . they look like twins ,dont they ?
at my crib .

look at how shocked ,delighted are they .tis is their cake .cute kn ?!haha .

speechless

2009-10-21T22:34:00.005+08:00

Yesterday mark a memorable day for me .
Full of memories and moments captured .
Sweetest dream and worst nightmare that had knocked onto my door .
Still cant be erased from my mind and heart till nw .
How fast time flies .
Its been 1 yr ever since we ...
Shall nt mention it .
We are now strangers .

ajid and nana .

2009-10-15T13:03:00.003+08:00

SEE THE GUY IN GREEN ?

ITS HIS BDAE TODAY !

HAPPY 18th BDAE TO ABDUL YAZID !

BE HAPPY AND CHEERFOOL ALWAYS YAH !

SAYAAANG KAU BYK2 AR ,HAWAU !

HAHA ! :D

HAPPY 23rd BDAE ,FARHANA !

HER BDAE ACTUALLY FALLS ON 13/10 .

APE NANA ?DA TUE EH ?

HAHA .

BE HAPPY & CHEERFOOL ALWAYS YAH !

& YES ,MAMAT MMG JANTAN JUEY .HEH .

SAYAAANG KAU BYK2 SKALI ! :D

skrg sume da tua .tggl kida jek yg msih muda .hurhur !haha ! :p

camne ?!

2009-10-15T12:35:00.002+08:00

EXAMS ARE OVER .and i knw tat im gonna flunk my math ,poa ,lit n mayb physic ?fuck !nabeychibai .

life been reali suck .all time .two more guys suddenly enter into my life ,without knocking the door .it feels so *kritkrit* .hidup hidup ..

maybe ..tis sat fyra ,faisal ,kyn ,fazryl ,nana n hassan gonna go fishing .sedih eh kida tk pergi .nk kuar ngan org2 yg ade date ni sume mmg ssh .malumla ,kida mane ade date .kida nyee sume anti-social ngan krg2 .kn kn kn ?!haha !die segaan ar ngan krg .haiyak !

sape nk pergi naek G-max angkat tgn !haha !let tis be our secret eh 'turtle' .*kening naek kening naek * hurhur !haha !

currently entertaining the two badigols ;saiful & adil .they talk lots of craps .haha !

will update more wit pictures ayeer .

hari raya '09

2009-09-26T18:26:00.003+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL MUSLIMS ! :D

KITE KITE :)

DANI QALISH !

TUN TEJAH !

ABDUL YAZID !

PILIH PILIH PILIH !HAHA !

AHMAD NURAFIQ !

UMAR ASHRAF .

PAKCIK KU YG PALING DAIF !HAHA !

FIRST DAY RAYE !

rinduu ..

2009-09-24T15:54:00.010+08:00

its just my luck tat i didnt attended sch today .nana msged me n said tat she's meeting Hassan today .if i had known earlier ,i would have gone to sch though im in for detention .why ?coz Hassan was akim's friend .n he was picking akim up frm sch .coincidentally ,akim nd to go fr detention .tat means if im in fr detention ,akim will be in the same room as me .n if by luck hassan n nana ask us to walk in together ,there's one thing i would ask him for sure while walking .i would ask "akim ,kenape kite lost contact ?" .definitely will ask him tis .i tink ..i tink i could alr guess his reponse ,"enta uh .tk tahu ."standard ans -.- .20/10/2008(mon) .i dont know how i could rmbr the date we where we knew each oth .pathetic eh .

i just wanna say tat i miss u ,alot .believe it or nt ,till nw i find it hard to erase ur name ,ur face frm my mind .msih terbayang-bayang .i cn no longer lie to myself n anyone .i dont have the strength .i reali dont .u left me hanging .rmbr wen u said "yakinla hanya i utk u " ,though i knw tat ini sume bullshit .n wen im forced to choose between u n 'tat guy ' ,i choosed u .though i dont knw where our journey will end at ,i waited on u .rmbr wen we were talkin otp till wee hrs ?there were always an incoming calls coming frm my hp in the midst of our conversation .while i was answering tat call ,u hung up on me .i miss called u yet u didnt returned my call .instead u msged ," kau g uh lyn jantan tu ! " ."huh ?!ape u mepek ni ?!tu kwn i jek kn !" ,i would replied ."kau igt aku bodo pe .kwn bole buat matae pe !" ,he continued those hurting wrds .my last rply "eh suke hati u ar .i da biase ar kene cam gni ."standard ,u would call me back (: it happened quite a few times kn .i have even captured ur pic ,candid under the void deck at tenage ,rmbr .
haiz .da la .ini sume mimpi .mimpi yg tk suda .
ape yg kida tahu ,pape yg keluar dari mulut akim tk bole dipercayai .itu sume bullshit !hanya sekadar sweet talk .

rafhan ;

2009-09-23T17:42:00.005+08:00

i miss the guy in the picture ,alot .he werent there for me again wenever i nd a listening ears .werent there to joke around wit me again .or debate bout superman n optimus prime .we have reali drifted far apart .we reali do .nw ,we are like strangers .back to basic .he no longer my laughters .no longer my mr 'judge' .i will no longer hear "wah ,kida la sey .so which one u choose " .fyi ,i still keep ur last msges .yes ,till now .god knows for how long we will stay tis way .yelaa ,da ade pompan baru lupe kwn ar .baek pe .kwn mcm tk kwn eh .da mcm org luar .haiyo .

i wish we could try harder to save it

2009-09-16T22:45:00.004+08:00

i secretly envious of sweet couples ;they would hug each oth .the guy will kiss the girl on the cheeks ,forehead n lips and even cuddle the girl .i envy them nt bcoz noboody wants me .bt bcoz im waiting .im tired if waitin for a guy to treat me like the way someone once did .how i miss falling in love badly .

i just want to be loved .by someone .

anyone .tats how pathetic i am .

watched eiffel ..im in love .aww ..the guy is reali sweet .it sent tears down my cheeks .
now i knw whyy nana will always cry whenever she watched the movie . :')

"TUN TEJAH "

2009-09-12T22:55:00.003+08:00

Sadly news - She wasn't there when i need someone to talk to. She never ever believe on me anymore. She wasn't the one who give me laughters from now. She wasn't there when im down. Yes, NOMORE ! Its okay anyway, only god knows my situation is. Takecare aje.

my dear ,im always there for you whenever u need someone to talk to .u knw me .im just a call away .and ,never said that i never believe on you anymore .i have always believe you .bt ,at certain point of time ,we nd evidence to proof something .sometimes ,things are just beyond my control .there's nothing i could do .im helpless .i hope u understand wat i mean .i have always wanted to give u laughters .yes ,laughters and nt tears .it makes me sad wenever u cried or in trouble .dont u knw tat it sent tears down my cheeks ?the feeling of u having problems and i can do nothing bout it .i reali feel so useless .being ur closest cousy and yet cant even enlighten ur probs or even make u laugh .the feeling was reali miserable .it reali was . :'( i have always love you .in fact ,u have always been a part of my life .u never fail to knw everything bout me .i also knw tat u love me ,a lot .u would do anything for me .to the extent of getting close with akim's fren for my sake .coz u have always sense tat till nw ,he cant be erased from my mind .u would never do anything silly for my sake too ,rite ?u would never do anything to hurt urself ,wont u ?coz it reali hurts me to see urself hurt . :'( aku sayaaaang kau ,gag .sume sayaaang kau .our love for you was never a lie .we really love you and care for you . :')

pastamania !

2009-09-12T21:57:00.003+08:00

(second post for today)

ini fast game nyee eh .break fast at PASTAMANIA with fyra ,her aunt & two other cousins ,sabrina and aqasha .her aunt treated us .auntie ,thx eh for the treat ! (:
it was fun breaking fast with them .especially when there's TWO entertainers ;sabrina and aqasha .haha !drg kecohh gile !reali enjoyed seeing their playful acts .da la puase yok yok eh !haha !let the pictures do the elaboration kay .ohh ,some of the pic is wit fyra .so ,have wait for her to send those pics to me .

before i went off to meet fyra .

he's the godfather of all ladies .haha !

the three cousies .

memperkenalkn nur sabrina .

memperkenalkn syed aqasha .

turtle dan tortoise !haha !

marinara ,i tink .

ohh ,thx ayeeer khairul for the recommendation of going to marina barrage .nant kite mkn ice cream byk2 eh khairul !haha ! :P

being simple is my forte .

2009-09-12T14:52:00.003+08:00

a fast and simple update .supposed to go out with afiq ,yazid and maybe atun .bt ,yazid last min cant make it .something crop up at work ,i tink .so ,plan cancel for today .will be meeting them tmr .and nw ,im going to have a date with my syg ,fyra .haha !khairul amrien sebok jek nk ikut .sorry eh ,no one can spoil my date .hahah !

SOMEONE WANT TO KISS ME !

SIAPE EH ?HMM ..

HAHA ! :P

pictures that have yet to be posted .

2009-09-11T14:09:00.001+08:00

"kenape kite ade eyebag " ,missed .

2009-09-11T12:35:00.001+08:00

first thing first ,blogger is back to its normal state .and finally !able to upload this photo .this photo was taken few mths back when mamat(Nasseir) had his first conversation with me and he sent me home .yes ,just the two of us .cool kn ?!haha !

didnt attended school yesterday .i dread going to school .so yeaa .only nyimas went for the lesson yesterday .fyra ,kida & nana sume menghlgkn diri .haha !

nw ,homework .i have not even started any of my homework .fcuk !i nd a bit of planning for my homework .oke ,going to do it on saturday night .

literature
history
social studies
malay

and ohh !to fyra ,nyimas & nana ,kida da ckp ape yg perlu pat ____ .u guys knw who laa kn .and guess wat ,tat badigol tk dtg utk english paper die pn -.- .tats wat he told me .dont knw if he's just playing prank on me or wat ar .

to HAZIQ ,

whyy are interrogating me like im yours ?honestly ,u dont even have the right to question me that way coz im aint yours .well at least nt at the moment .u should knw that u have gone a bit too far tis time .coz sriously ,thats my business . you are comparing me with other girls out there who love to flirt around !helloo !im not the flirty type la !for nw ,i regard everyone as my friends .yes ,INCLUDING you .u said sorry n i forgave you and gave u chance .bt ,dont blame me if i didnt entertain ur msges or joke around with you like how i used to before .

im AQUARIUS ! :D

2009-09-09T15:39:00.001+08:00

LIBRA - The Asshole
(9/23-10/22)
Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. High appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Fun to be around. Extremely weird but in a good way. *5 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

SCORPIO - The SUPERIOR One
(10/23-11/21)
Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Best kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. Amazing in bed.*15 years of bad luck if you do not repost

SAGITTARIUS-THE SUPERIOR SEXUAL PARTNER
(11/22-12/21)
Loves to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. EXTREMELY SEXY. Predict future. Loves being in long relationships. Has lots of friends. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Also not a fighter, but if they have to, they will also knock the lights out of you if it comes down to it..Cool. .
*24 years of bad luck if you do not reposT THIS

CAPRICORN - The One that Waits
(12/22-1/19)
Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always Wants the last word. Caring. Smart.Sweet. Loud. Loyal. Beautiful. Goofy. Easy to talk to. *7 Years of bad luck if you do not repost

AQUARIUS - THE ONE EVERY GIRL OR BOY NEEDS
(1/20-2/18)
Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to Have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. *7 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

PISCES - The perfect one
(2/19-3/20)
EXTREMELY adorable. Intelligent. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Energetic. Predict future. AWESOME KISSER.. Always get what they want. Very Attractive. Easy going. RARE Finding. *4 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

ARIES- The Irresistible One
(3/21-4/19)
Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners. Very Good in bed... Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing. VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. .
*9 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

TAURUS - The Aggressive One
(4/20-5/20)
Very high appeal. Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak. Spontaneous.*12 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

GEMINI - The Gorgeous one
(5/21-6/21)
Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny. Excellent kisser EXTREMELY adorable. dual personalities. Loves relationships,
Addictive. Loud.
*16 years of bad luck if you do not repost

CANCER - The Coolest mutha fucka ull ever meet.
(6/22-7/22)
Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being In long-term relationships. Extremely energetic. Unpredictable. *2 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

LEO - The Sexy One
(7/23-8/22)
Very talkative. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, Fun and SEXY. Have own unique appeal. Irresistible. *10 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

VIRGO- The Promiscuous One
(8/23-9/22)
Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. Not one to mess with. Very pretty

pissed off !

2009-09-07T15:04:00.002+08:00

DA KENAPE NGAN BLOGGER NI ?!PRANGAI SIAA !BILE NK GAME ?!URGGH !

RAFHAN mane eh ?kemane menghilangkn diri ?
i just wanna say tat i miss u truckloads .
yes ,i reali do .
i reali miss u cheering me up wenever i was feeling down .
i reali miss u being my listening ears wenever i nd sumone to talk to .
i reali miss our silly conversation ;superman vs optimus prime ,rmbr ?
i reali miss ur cute "promises" .
i reali miss how we would imagine tat we were in our lalaland .
yes ,URS + MINE =OUR lalaland .
i reali miss how u would say hw cute i looked wenever i wear dresses .lol .
the talk we had bout whether u should take up licence for motor or car .
to simplify ,I MISS EVERYTHING BOUT YOU ,friend .
just telling you that WE have drifted apart .
hope you will beep me soon .coz i have a lot of stories to tell you .
rinduu rafhan byk2 ! :(

_______ didnt msg-ed me since friday night .hope he will msg me tonight .
maybe he went for holiday over the weekend ?well ,maybe ..
im trying nt to have any negative thoughts .
i felt reali uneasy when he didnt msg-ed .
so ,i told the usuals bout it .
to tink i would get an earing frm them .
coz it took me 6 mths to start developing the "feelings" for him .
yeaa ,maybe i deserve to get the lecture frm them .
i have just realised tat i would feel restless if he didnt msg me .
u get wat im tryin to say ?
im trying to heed their advice .
they said "go for it laa .aku rase die ngah tunggu kau ar ."
go for it ?
tapi ,kida tknk sakitkn hati sesiape lagi .
how to go fr it wen my hart is nt fully fr him ?
and all they say "give both you n him a chance la .blum cuba blum tahu "
i'll try oke .
kida nk ckp yg kida sayaaang die ,bole ?
tap ,mcm klakar gtu eh .
it feels reali awkward .HAHA !

IM USING ORANGE OUTFIT THIS YEAR !HURHUR ! :P

had ,still and always will .

2009-08-27T15:57:00.000+08:00

"ohh ,they aint mean .they kiss you and hug you good nite and good mornin ' and goodbyee and tell you they love you - scout ,lets get us a baby ."
"where?"
"there was a man dill had heard of who had a boat tat he rowed across to a foggy island where all these babies ere ;u could order one -
"thats a lie .aunty said god drops 'em down the chimney .at least tats wat i tink he said ."
"well tat aint so .you get babies from each oth .bt there's tis man ,too - he has all those babies just waitin' to wake up ,he breathes life into 'em ."

cute kn ?!how i wish i could have those conversation with the one i love .

ohh ,my blogger is back to normal .heh .sry eh .blog mampus skejap ar .

so ,yesterday was nana's birthday .HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAYAANG !haha !

eh mat ,kopi satu !(inside joke )haha !

lots and lots of things been happening nowadays .nyimas n nana maen gile eh !ape nyimas .nape kite ade eyebag ?nk tauu g tny si dektu .haha .

nana da attach ,kinn still going strong wit kam .tggl kida ,nyimas n fyra jek .fyra n nyimas mungkin laa kn ..ehem ehem !heh .tap kida tak akn .tats i knw .

total shitass .

2009-08-23T04:16:00.000+08:00

okaay ,its been quite a while since i update my blog ,i guess .
had a mini surprise birthday for nyimas on the 20th .cume kite2 jek .
did a lot of silly things wit the usuals .said a lot of 'things' wit nana .kn nana kn ?!haha !and nana syg ,its nt anak muhammed eh ..its anak mohamed syg ..
anak roslan menantu sape ?
anak mohamed menantu sape ? :p
tis is all just for fun oke .dont take it sriously .tap ,klau betul2 terjad ,bole jgk .heh .

nothing much to update .so yeah .chao !

tell me whyy .

2009-08-18T16:30:00.000+08:00

dear close cousy of mine ,
whyy do you let emotions control you ?this is nt the strong n confident tejaa i knw .tis is nt the tejaa who wont get sick of telling me to forget mika ,though she knw tat i wont listen to her .where is the crazy ,bithcy tejaa ?i want tat prsn back .to the one who made her tis way ,please give me the old tejaa back .i dont knw who is the particular prsn u're talking about ,bt ,im sure you wont let tat prsn get in your way ,rite ?u're strong !im sure u can overcome the obstacle !tkmo sedih2 laa k ?watever it is ,im here for you 24/7 ! :D k pantaaat ?!heh !

lots and lots of funny things been happening .lazy to elaborate .

rafhan is now my scandal !HAHA !kn rafhan kn ?!rmbr ,u nd to take licence so tat it will be easy fr us to meet .kida nk motor tap mak rafhan ckp motor dangerous .so ,he's taking licence fr car !haha !cheyy !nant senang eh rafhan nk ambil kida ?!haha !mcm fhm siaa rafhan !heh .

& ohh !someone called me "bie" today . -.- merepek pe .

made a deal wit fyra & nyimas .im nt suppose to talk bout the past tat always make me sad .yeaa ,sure .i will try laa k .bt ,nt confident of it .heh . :p

u left me hanging then .

2009-08-14T18:39:00.000+08:00

tot of telling rafhan wats has been on my mind fr some time .bt ,he had to rush coz he's going skating at bishan just nw .

thank god ,i found someone who i knw i cn rely on .had a hart-to-hart conversation with _____ .yeaa ,the conversation reali caused me my teardrops ,a lot .a general question bt the impact is very deep huh .like u said ..ape yg jad sume ade sebab ,chill k .thx ar gag .i guess u're the onli guy i cn reali depend on .i will take everything to my stride .yeaa ,im gonna do it .

i wonder whyy today i cried a lot .just nw while slacking wit nyimas & fyra ,i shed tears (nyimas seen it for the first time ) .reached home ,u will see tat i have a red eyes & nose .and now ,no eyebags will be seen at my eyes .

lots of things been happening ;lots of coincidences & lots of incidents .been squeezing my brain bout bro .he's becoming more & more wild .just hate the company he hang out with nw.feels like fcuking shout at them .faggot .handling him with care .been keeping a close tab on him .niymas & fyra saw a flasher wen we slacked at the blk beside multi-storey carpark .encountered with guys whose are mentally ill ,i guess .creeped us out .

made new friend today .my circle of friends is getting bigger .thumbs up .

sudden .

2009-08-13T20:48:00.000+08:00

what's happening to the world now ?i mean like ..urrggh !nvm .forget it .
today is very different .its WEIRD and NONSENSICAL .yeaa ,maybe tats the right wrd to describe today .nobody will get wat i meant by "weird" and "nonsensical" .
maybe ..fyra get the picture roughly ?but ,for sure ,i need RAFHAN right now !RAFHAN !bile nk online ?!i need you badly right now !urggh !

after sch ,lpk-ed wit the usuals + kinn .she joined us .den decided to slacked at nyimas's crib .had karaoke session there .one wrd ,SPLENDID !had an awesme karaoke session .sing like nobody business .den ,went back home arnd 4 ?get changed and off to eunos mrt to meet mum & afiq as he wanna buy hp .mum wanna buy one fr me too bt i declined .susah kn nk caye kida tolak hp baru ?!i knw !haha .nt into hp fr nw laa .in the end ,mum bought new hp fr dad without him knowing it .u cn say as surprised fr him ?

writes up .

2009-08-11T15:34:00.000+08:00

okaay ,blogger msih prangai .tkpe2 ,kida sabar .tap !if tis goes on ,tats it !im gonna change to livejournal !fcuk !

TODAY ,
did nothing much .slacking around coz gt a lot of free periods .lpk-ed for a while .saw tat prsn wit 'jonny' .nyimas n azerael kept talking bout silent hill ? -.- while the rest buat hal masing2 - bbl psl game laen .kecohh kecohh .

YESTERDAY ,
slacked at home .watched ghost movies non-stop hits .n yeaa ,at night listened to MJ12 wit afiq since we gt nothing to do .i cant believe tat AFIQ would SHOUT & RUN after listening to one the stories !haha !prangai stop it siaa .afiq afiq ..

LAST SUNDAY ,
supposed to went out wit frens .fara yg plan tis outing bt in the end canceled .psl fara tk msg nk jumpe patne sume .n all of us like been waiting fr her msges .check2 die tk msg .so yeaa .bt !tejaa msged me n asked me out .coz her frens slacked at home during NDP .supposed to meet at 4 bt i reached at approximately 430 ?den accopany her to buy her ideal shirt .planned to watch movies at suntec bt there were onli 3
movies available at tat time .cite sume kes mepek nyee .turn ff siaa nk tgk wayang .so ,we went to survey for things at suntec n city link .den ,we headed to vivo city .tot of slacking at henderson wave bt ..we were held up by tejaa nyee kecohh nk g survey brg .heh .tkpe la ,esk2 kite g hendarson wave laa k .ohh ya ,i surveyed things at vivo for bro's upcoming bday .met nana ,hafiz ,akid & fat pat raffles arnd 10 ?pictures will be uploaded sn k .lots of stupid & silly faces me & tejaa made .haha !

LAST SATURDAY ,
watched obsessed & hangover .one wrd to describe ,AWESOME !did a lot of stupid things wit afiq & yazid .lame joke tk lame joke (inside joke) !haha !narnope narnope ..

BEFORE I FORGOT ,CHELSEA VS MAN UTD ,CHELSEA MNG !FUUHHHH !HAHAH !
sdih pe anq ,yazid ,nana & jonny .for afiq ,baek pe chelsea mng !haha !

n rafhan ,i may miss falling in love .bt for nw ,im nt prepared to have any relationships oke .'miss' dgn 'nak ' laen eh ..haha .

mimpi itu indah .

2009-08-07T15:18:00.003+08:00

nyimas :eh !krg nk tauu tk ape aku mimpi smlm ?!kiwaaak !aku tersenyum siaa dlm tidur .tating kaaan !hahaa !
kida & fyra :mimpi ape siaa ?
nyimas :k ,its like tis ..kida ,fyra ,nana & aku g marina barrage to watch fireworks during national day .tap ni kes ape tauu .fyra wit daniel ,nana wit khai & aku wit ____ .kite tiga couple da sampai ar pat marina barrage .cume kida jek blum sampai .den aku blg ngan fyra "mane ni kida ?blum sampai2 ."beh ,arnd 7 plus gtu kida pn sampai ar .beh ,kite tige cam "eh kesian sia kida tkde partner ."TAP !kite da nmpk kida ngah jln towards us .we tot she was alone .check2 ,____ ngan die siol !kite bertiga da mcm blur siol !den kida do the hand sign .n bile drg da ngan kite ,aku ,fyra & nana tarik kida to one side n asked her camne drg bole bersame .den kida blg ar hw it started n all .kite sume da jerit cam org gile siaa !den kite ambil gmbr sume ngan posing masing2 .beh ___ kn tk rapat ngan kite tige nyee couple .beh ,kida tny ar nape ngan die .den die tarik kida jauh2 .kite sume da mcm "eh asl siaa ngan drg ?kiwaak ." *den something happens*
den ,its pengumuman time !____ announce tat kida ngan die officially together .den nyimas wit ____ pn same .fyra n daniel da nk 1 mth n nana wit khai da 6 hari !part tu sume ketawe siaa !ohh !nyimas wit ___ & fyra wit daniel pakai baju red .den nana n khai colour green .kida ngan dektu pula pakai blue !cute kn kite !
fyra ,nyimas n kida :*sume tersenyum n jerit2 *

there's more to it .bt ,im just lazy to elaborate .

IF ONLI WHAT NYIMAS DREAM ABOUT COMES TRUE .
KALAULA APE YG NYIMAS MIMPI TU JAD KENYATAAN .

FUUUUUUH !
MIMPI MIMPI .BOLE KE BENDE TU JAD KENYATAAN ?

ohh ya !our grp lost in the semifinal futsal match .we gt 4th .haiz .sedih pe .next yr try lag kaay ?! :)

FCUK !

2009-08-05T17:55:00.000+08:00

fuck ar fuck !asshole ar tis blogger !damn !prangai siaa ni bende !nabeycibai .
i reali2 changing to livejournal nw !like sriously !

okaay ,someone pissed me off for two fucking days !i mean like ..'she' has been giving me tat fucking look .like as if i did her wrg or something !pls la eh !dont make it like i have been seducing her boy or something !nabeycibai .she tinks she somekind of hotstuff huh ?!she tinks she's all tat .one day ,u will cry wit ur knee on the ground ,coz i knw he;s a heartbreaker .

NOT REMEMBERING THAT JACKASS !

dazzing all alone ,thinking bout you .

2009-08-03T16:22:00.000+08:00

faggot !kenape ni tk bole nk upload image ?!cibai !grrr !maybe ,i should change to livejournal or maybe wordpress !just like fyra and nene .haha !

attention eh !fyra ,nana & nyimas are in the building now !
kida is in the house laa deyy !HAHA !
do you see the difference between mine n theirs ?
my babes sume terpranjat beruk eh bile dpt msg tu .haha !
klau ape yg kida sent tu tul2 terjad ,7 hari 7 mlm siaa kida buat kenduri .
inside joke inside joke .cume kite kite jek yg fhm .tul tk ?

when's my turn ?
kida no hal .kida go wit the flow jek .kn krg ?heh .

okaay ,lepak-ed wit fyra ,fara ,nyimas etc .did a lot of stupid things wit them .jonny eh b ..haha !den ,sent nyimas to sch .coz she had rehearsal for NDP on friday .but !before she went inside ,she did something which made all of us - fyra ,me & fara jealous .pfft .nyimas suke kn buat kite jealous ?!tkpe2 ,esk kida panggil 'die' srh 'die' buat ape yg nyimas buat bole ?heh :P

today ,i felt reali strange .i dont knw whyy .she keep saying that he keep looking at me .whether its true or nt ,no one knws laa kn .hopefully its reali true .

whyy eh ?whyy i cant get over you ?i feel like a fool here ,waiting for a miracle to happen .why do i find it hard to let go of my past ?can sumone tell me ?i mean like sriously .can someone give me an explaination whyy it happens so ?urggh !whyy i cant open my hart for anyone after him ?u knw ,its like ..after him ,i dont reali entertain msges from any guys .kenape eh kite lost contact ??where did we went wrong ?did i do something that make u angry or watsoever huh mika ?whyy is this so ?as far as i rmbr ,i have never done anything tat pissed u off ,am i rite ?haiz .if onli i could say straight to ur face hw much imy&ily .bt ,do i reali have the courage to say tat ?i dont tink so .

yeaa2 .kida stop it eh .kate tknk bbl psl die lag .tkmo igtkn die laa .g cari org baru k .(i knw tis is wat fyra ,nana & nyimas goin to say to me if they read tis post )

slamat ar kida .esknyee confirm kene lecture ngan drg .haha .

hurhur !

2009-07-30T16:19:00.003+08:00

nana :tap sriously siaa ,si dektu handsome siaa .
nyimas :die bkn handsome siol ,tap hot siaa !kida da high !haha !
me :*keneng naek2 *
nyimas :krg due betul nyee kene tauu .u suit for each oth ar .like compatible gtu .
nana :ah'ah .krg cam ..tk tau ar camne nk ckp .klau diri sebelah2 cam same gtu .mcm adek beradik .haha !
me :ape siaa cam adek beradik !maen gile eh ngan aku !hahaha !
perbualan ini cume antara nana ,nyimas dan kida .tap klau fyra nk tauu ,tny kite k .

yg penting ,rmbut kerinting harus digunting .

-afiq badigol .

saturday :narnope coming over to slack at my crib .

lelaki lelaki .

stupidity -.-

2009-07-29T16:14:00.005+08:00

some silly things happened to me today .
in the mrng ,woke afiq up n he said he's feeling cold & asked whether i feel the same too .and i said no when actually i do felt a bit cold .=.=
reached sch ,i asked wan to msg fyra ,asking where is she .den i realised tat i can easily used my phone to msg her . =.=
den ,while doing history test ,my right contact lens was dry .and i was like trying to fix my lens in the midst of the test .i looked like i was crying .nyimas was trying to help & see whether i was oke .n shuk was there laughing at me .
it was abit chaotic coz kin & sheng hua was trying to gif me eyemo .
went to the toilet to remove the lens coz its too dry n alr spoilt .so ,its like ..sebelah clear ,sebelah tk clear . -.-
den ,aft sch ,i straight went home .its onli wen i was about to reached den i realised tat i gt leadership wrkshp at sch until 530 .i was like WTF !da sampai umah baru terigt ade wrkshp pe .selenge sia kida ..

u smlm batt flat ah takle reply bukannye sengaje eh .(6:55 am )
-someone .
tkut kida mrh eh ?haha .tk mrh la .

and to that unknown guy ,just stop msging and bothering me la bodo !brape kali nk blg huh !tk fhm bahase pe !nk kida bbl keling ?!tk serik2 eh ,da kene maki ngan tejaa sume .STUPID JACKASS !ASSHOLE !

birthday bash .

2009-07-27T14:30:00.020+08:00

had an AWESOME weekends !fuuhhh !yeaa ,had a surprised bday bash for tejaa !suke ?!haha !and yeaa ,celebrated grandparents' anniversary too .nana's man ,HAFIZ ,joined us too for the weekend .lazy to elaborate .let the pictures do the story oke ? ^^

music box .

2009-07-23T15:09:00.003+08:00

fyra has been absence for two days ! i miss her a loot siaa ! :(
i miss talking craps ,make funny faces and make a fool of ourselves .
FYRA ,GET WELL SOON KAY BBY . :)

had a mundane thursday ,except for malay and literature . heh . we have been enjoying a loot in malay class lately ! and NO LITERATURE lesson today coz our teacher was absence ! haha !

after sch ,lepak-ed for a while wit nyimas and nana . & all we did was SING , SING & SING ! maklumlaa ,kite kn biol !heh . ni klau fyra ade , baru complete kn kn kn ?!ni sume kes tk tauu malu ,nyanyi sekuat mungkin .especially nyimas . she sang all kinds of genre i tell you . frm jiwang to rnb to retro den to hari raya song and back to jiwang . tating kn ?! haha ! i just lovee them ! :D

den ,accompanied nana to buy her top-up card .while walking back home ,i bumped into MARK !one of those who i used to hang out wit every friday night !we did a bit of catching up .he's damn hot hot heat ! gosh ! i reali miss him and the rest a loot !like sriously !in the past ,meeting them every friday was like a routine .its always 8 pm till late .haha !the oldest will be like 19(Nurul) and the youngest is me !and i was like the baby of the group ^^ .skrg sume da rilek ar .skrg sume da busy .haiz .rinduu siaa krg ! bile nk jumpe eh ?

CIKGU AMIR SURUH SEMUA PELAJAR-PELAJAR MELAYU 3A DAN 3C UNTUK HAFAL SATU LAGU YG JIWANG .SUPAYA SENANG UNTUK KAMI MEMBUAT KARANGAN YG SEDIH .HAHA !
GEREKK PE NI CIKGU !

andai terpisah ,laut dan pantai

musnahla ilham ,punah asmara .

-given by cikgu amir to the class .

optimus prime vs superman ,who will win ?

2009-07-21T17:50:00.003+08:00

okaay ,i talked craps wit RAFHAN .reali craps !haha !here are some of our conversation .

Rafhan Kick Some Ass says:
superman maner boleh mati
kidaa laa deyy . says:
superman bole laa .
kidaa laa deyy . says:
die manusiaa pe .
kidaa laa deyy . says:
optimus prime robot .
kidaa laa deyy . says:
batt weak jek charge ar .
Rafhan Kick Some Ass says:
batt weak
Rafhan Kick Some Ass says:
je superman da rembat
kidaa laa deyy . says:
ade bumble bee ,bole back up .
Rafhan Kick Some Ass says:
superman satu org da kuat
kidaa laa deyy . says:
superman tk tauu rase malu .
Rafhan Kick Some Ass says:
nope
Rafhan Kick Some Ass says:
die da kuat nk rase malu uat ape
kidaa laa deyy . says:
die suke pakai seluar dlm pat luar .
kidaa laa deyy . says:
beh pat dlm tk pakai .

and it goes on and on ..

HE JUST MAKE ME LAUGH (:

pandemonium . :P

2009-07-21T14:50:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 17th BDAE TO MY DEAREST COUSY !

WAH ,DA BESAR EH DIA !HEH .

BE HAPPY AND CHEERFOOL ALWAYS YAH !

SAYAAAAANG KAU ! :D

anw ,chatted wit RAZY yesterday .he kept saying that kida da sombong .just bcoz i didnt msg him .kida tk sombong oke .im just too lazy to msg anyone unless people msg me .kida kn pemls .kn kn kn ?heh .den ,he called me kida kedondong -.- .he's weird ,just like me .haha !

nyimas noticed my behaviour .she said "hyper eh u nari ngan smlm ."den she laughed .whyy ?because i have been so-called dancing wit her yesterday .and today ,i danced again ,alone -.- hahah !

n yeaa ,fyra sakit seyy .die demam :( .tap esk die ckp die trun kola .psl nk tgk kida :D hahah !get well soon yah !& takin cares . :)

i just loveee my babes !

true confessions .

2009-07-20T15:56:00.004+08:00

kepada semua yg slalu ade utk kida ,slalu menemani kida ,slalu sedia mendgr masalah dan tangisan kida ,terutama skali nana ,nyimas dan fyra ,kida mengucapkn terima kasih byk2 .klau tkde krg ,kida rase kida da jad gile ar .heh .

kepade tejaa ,nana ,yazid ,afiq dan laen2 ,terima kasih kerana slalu buat kida ketawe dgn krg nyee gelagat .dan juga kerana tidak prnh jemu utk mendgr masalah kida atau ape sekalipn .

tidak lupe juga kepade aini R ,hemelia ,wardah ,suhaili ,aini hayati dan semua bdk2 sehati ,kidaa rinduu krg seyy :( .lebih2 lag Aini R ,rinduu si dektu sgt2 !

ohh yah !my babes fr 4 yrs ;tiara ,rara ,fathin ,isa ,khairun & dan byk2 lag ,rinduu krg laa seyy !miss u ppl truckloads !bile mauu jumpe ?

sayaaaaang semua byk2 ! ^^

okaay ,im done wit my so-called speech .haha .i knw its lame -.- .

am i dreaming or is it just someone that called my name frm his class just nw .hmm ..sape agaknyee eh ..

sometimes being female is reali difficult .we dont have as much freedom as guys' .yes ,i knw its because we ,female are weaker and are more prone to dangers .we shud nt fret over the little freedom we have .coz sooner or later ,we'll definitely be given as much freedom as we want ,rite ?and thats the reason whyy parents takes extraodinary care for their daughter .coz they dont wish their daughter to go astray .and they want their daughter to bloom beautifully ,without being hurt by the thousands of thorns .as a result ,leaving the painful wounds left unhealed .so ,tkmo sesekali rase bingit dgn leteran mak dan bpk kau ,fhm ?drg control kau ade sebab gag .take it slow k .and !dont do that stupid foolish thing ever again oke !kau buat lag ,kau kene ngan aku .aku warning kau eh .cheyy !haha !

answered :'(

2009-07-17T15:35:00.003+08:00

i got a wake up call .my question has been answered .yeaa ,i get to knw tat u're contacting wit someone .trust me ,i will move on now that i've come to my senses .how stupid can i be to hope that things will be just like before .

STUPID KIDA !CANT U JUST GET THE PICTURE ?!HE HAS LONG FORGET BOUT YOU LA KIDA !WAKE UP FROM UR LALALAND ,WILL YOU !U NAIVE SILLY GAL !

indeed ,its reali hurtful .yet ,i have to swallow the bitter truth no matter what .though the pain is unbearable ,i guess i just have to stomach it .

*crying* im sry .i cant help it bt to breakdown .im all alone nw .i dont knw who to turn to .my confidante is busy with their own things .tell me ,what can i do beside crying .its the only way to let out my sorrows .

to fyra ,nana & nyimas ,im begging you .never ever mention his name in front of me again .please please please .. :'( i reali need ur helps to make me forget him .im srious this time .help me to hate him and nt love him more .

its worthless to wait for something tat u ain't sure if its gonna happen .
its worthless to miss someone if u ain't sure he gonna miss you too .
its worthless to love someone if u ain't sure he gonna love u back .
its worthless to shed tears for someone who doesn't deserve even a teardrop of ur tears .
waiting for you is like waiting for the rain to drought ;worthless and disappointing . :(

the story goes ..

2009-07-16T15:05:00.006+08:00

today i saw him again ,this time he walked pass me under the void deck .thankfully ,i didnt went on my knees(literally) and shaked my ass off !tis time tk CAIR !haha !^^

i just miss him ,again .

bagaimana ..jikalau semua ini tidak lagi bersama dengan ku .ku berdoa ..agar dikau mengerti yang ku setia terhadap mu .

spaghetti !

2009-07-15T22:52:00.013+08:00

oke ,went to ikea wit the gals .except that nana and nyimas didnt get to join us ): .believe it or nt ,we went there just have our lunch -.- .well atleast i get to eat spaghetti which i long crave for .heh .lazy to elaborate .let the pictures do the storytelling k .(nt all pictures are uploaded)

ilove tis pic the most ! ^^

god knws wat am i trying to do .

the six ladies .

u see ,people just lovee to take a snap of me :P