

because of you ,i have to go through this rocky journey .
because of you ,i have lose concentration in everything i do .
because of you ,i no longer know what is my focus in life .
its all because of you .yes ,you .
in the first place ,i shouldn't have let you enter into my life .
in the first place ,i shouldn't have let you steal my heart away .
in the first place ,i should have ignore you .
if i had known that our casual talks would first let to infatuation ,i would avoid you .
if i had known that this infatuation will soon make me feel attached to you ,i would ignored your txts .
if i had known that this whole thing would just hurt me ,i would not let myself fall for you .
it all starts with a smile ,grows with a kiss and end with a tear .
Labels: all you say was a lie .

dear hair ,
i hope you could grow faster and longer .
im already missing my long hair .
pls fulfil this wish of mine .

Labels: in my heart (:


Labels: thank you .

Labels: reading ;


"you ,ngah buat ape ?"
"you ,g tdo bodo ."
"you g flush hp you pat jamban pun baek .hahah !"
"you ,kenape kite ade eyebag ?"
"ohh ,patutla mate you rbak ehh .hahah !"
"ily !"
"hello .iffah ade .hahah !"
"cnfrm you nk i ltk phone ?"
"i tk tdo la nari .kn i nk jumpe you pag .tkut nant i tkle bgun ."
"nant kite buat candlelit dinner k .i beli 2 burger pat canteen ,u bawa 1 candle .beh kite jumpe pat bwh blk fr our dinner .heh ."
"you ,nyanyi pls ."
"you pendek siaa !tgk mcm i tinggi ."
"ehh i ade muscle ehh !hahah !"
"you ,sorry la .sorry tau ."
"you ,go and sleep la ."
"ohh menggatal eh ngan laki laen ."(in a joke manner )
"yakinla hanya i untuk you ."
"i rindu you sey ."
"klau i msuk lmbt ,u book i k ."
"goodnite ."
"gdnite" .tats the last word i heard frm him through the phone .
his words are still echoing in my head .
why cant i be wit him huh ??
imissyousoohhmuch .
you are killing me softly .
Labels: if onli you could see, u are the only guy i think of .
i dont wanna be the girl who falls hard on the ground because she has fallen out of love and because she has screwed up her studies .
i would rather be the girl who has fallen out of love than the girl who screwed up her studies .
cos ,im used to falling out of love .in fact ,till nw ,im still left hanging in the middle of nowhere .nt knowing as to whether wait upon him or just move on with my life .
ohh well ,love matter dont bother me fr now and im glad its tat way .
cos rite nw wat bothers me the most is my studies .
im reali reali reali afraid of O lvl .
i reali reali reali reali pray and hope tat i could get good grades tat cn make me enter TP or SP .
ya'allah ,sekiranya engkau mendengar permintaan dan rayuan hambamu ini ,kurniakan la segala permintaan daku .amin .
Labels: inila secebis ceritaku .
school has been awfully stressful .
yes ,i'm having a hard time coping with my studies .
the accumulating homeworks day by day ,revisions ,lessons till almost dusk ,tests ,tution- all have been up to my neck .
to add on the burden , i still have 'O' lvl coming up in 7 months .
one word ;PRESSURIZING .
there are times where i would breakdown and cry .
i just cant control my emotions and nerves .
i reali cant .
sometimes ,i just wish tat i could let out all my feelings and emotions to someone who is tightly attach to my heart .
bt i guess tat wont be happening in these nearing months to 'o' lvl .
too busy to find someone special and too tired and lazy to entertain any of those .
anyway ,still cant erase tat prsn frm my mind and heart .
so ,why bother to find someone who cant possibly replace him .
come on kida ,just bear in mind tat 7 months will end before u knw it .
and tat u will have an excellent results fr 'o' which can get u into the of course of Law and Management .
SHARIFAH AKIDAH MOHAMED WILL GET GD GRADES FR O LEVEL ;BELOW 15 PTS .
HE LOVELY LADIES TOO .
WE WLL ALL GO TO THE SAME POLY .
they tricked me into playing blindfolded game .
and i was like a moron sitting there waiting fr the cue to start the match .
suddenly ,i heard violin and acoustic guitar being played and people singing the bday song .
there it is ,a cake with my "lady gaga " photo attached on it .
well ,there's a story why people labelled tat photo as the "lady gaga " photo .
afterwhich ,i was called to sit beside my cousin while he played a melodic song wit his violin .
things i got overall fr my bday
- ripcurl wallet .
- a blue dress frm Zara boutique .
- puma shoe .
- Topshop $40 voucher .
- cash $30 .
- necklace .
- an elephant soft toy .
- a belt frm Cotton On .
- candies .
Labels: hey 2546, im still loving you .

Labels: reality bites .
last friday bumped into this ex of mine (:
did some catching up and all .
he gt 19 points fr his 'O' .
ass him -.-
haha .
he's a good guy ,im the bad girl .
im the one tat broke his heart :/
bt hey !we are still friends oke :P
and im glad we still do .
Labels: u were once my hero .
well ,slacked wit nana ,nyimas ,halifi and sayyid just nw .
fyra went back home to take her tights coz she's too old to rmbr bringing it -.- .
den ,saw my sweetheart Rara (:
i was like "Rara !!!! "*den waved at her like a mad girl * .
heh ,i just missed her truckloads ! :D
its been ages since we last meet .
and yeah ,nana and nyimas tot i was waving at those "lifespirit" clique .
hell no !hello !am i tat blind as to wave at them ?!
stop it siaa krg .hahah !
to you ,i still love you though .
Labels: i've fall fr you ., some eons ago
DONT WORI ,ITS NT TAT EXPENSIVE :D

Labels: please tun tejah .pleaseee .. :D
okaay ,i guess apple disagree wit my statement on the previous post .
bt hey !its true oke !
there's someone out there who loves you :P
heh .
anw ,chat wit my long lost fren ,Fathin Aerlisa .
Gosh !miss her truckloads !
she's cute ,just like me :P
and and !she gt A1 fr her malay o lvl !
happy fr u my dear (:
TO RARA ,I MISS YOU TOO !A WHOLE LOTS :(
Labels: my hands are saerching fr you .
I KNOW U ARE TALLER THAN ME .
PFFFT .
TAT IDIOTIC RAFIQ IS ASLO CALLING ME 'SHORTY' .
HW SAD IS TAT .
am i reali tat short ?
no right ?
sorry for that .
been busy wit school lately .
yeah ,believe it or nt ,i haf been an obedient and hardworking girl who does her work all the time .
tis yr ,im gonna haf a clean record wit all the teachers .
except fr the fact tat i was caught fr my coloured hair -.-
surprisingly ,i haf been awfully hardworking in doing my maths work !
thumbs up ! :D
well ,its nt only me but the whole class !
i tink ,one of the reason is tat we love our maths teacher too much ^_^
put school aside ,i shall talk bout my life nw .
i tink ,i no longer need a guy in my life ,fr nw .
coz being in love means hurt .
and i cant stomach the pains i haf to go through after being wounded .
no ,im nt a strong girl .
my love life is nt as beautiful and as wonderful it seemed to be .
maybe ..im nt as lucky as nana ,nyimas or even fyra .
they each haf a guy to love them .
yet ,i dont even feel downhearted .
i knw tat i haf exhausted all my love to someone .
love expect no returns .
and i haf always believe tat the moments captured wit the loved one is the most priceless gift fr me .
i haf no regrets .
Labels: Ich liebe dich ;
and we ,the graduating classes attended it so tat we cn look at the expressions of students taking their results .
congrats to AINI ,who haf gotten 16 points .
she must be super duper elated ! :D
and ,we had height and weight measurement .
i didnt grow at all :(
i cheated just now ,i tiptoed .
still ,my height is only 159cm .
how sad is tat .
haiyak !
the most depressing part is tat i gained 3 fucking kg !
see wat happens wen all u did was rotting at home like a pig !
now ,i reali feel like a pig -.-
i tink ..i will start working out wit afiq since he will be having his IPPT on Feb .
so afiq ,lets start tis Saturday ,pleaseeee .
now ,chatting wit Adil and Zainul .
tis idiotic adil made me mad ,whole time .
he cheated my feelings ! :(
he knws ,i knw bt public dont knw .
and nw im very very the sad yknw .
tendang kau baru tahu .
hahah !
and zainul says i look cute wit short hair :P
went to parkway parade wit mum ,bro and afiq .
bought few things there .
bought 2 portable DVD players fr our cars since dad asked to .
afterwhich ,went to giant the mighty ,giant saving !hehhehh .
bought grocery stuffs .
bro and i each bought fbt short and shirt !
hehhehehehh ^^




didnt attend school today .heh .
i woke up fresh and vibrant today !
anw ,dad gave me $54 today !
i was jumping on my feet until he said tat he took $14 frm my piggybank .
so ,tat $54 include the money he took frm my piggybank -.-
ass him .haha !
bt ,nehmind .
my profit is still big .
and and !the clothes i bought online has arrived !
wooohooo !
i especially love the purple dress ^_^ !
there's a total of 5 clothes .
mum planning to buy online ,again .
i will take tis chance into my hands !
so mum ,dont blame me if ur pocket has a hole in it .heh :P
Labels: friend ., i love you
school has officially open today (4/1/2010) .
yesterday ,i can onli close my eyes at 3 am and i haf to wake at 6 am . -.-
and tat khairul texted me saying "selamat sekolah !wakakaka !" .
ohh ,mentang-mentang da graduate ,nk kerek eh ..
tendang baru tahuu .idiot .hahha !
yeah ,i dread going to school bt tat attitude wont last tat long .
wanna knw whyy ?
coz someone dearly to me is still in tis sch and maybe graduate on the same yr . ^_^
finally ,i get to meet my lovely ladie again .
i miss them truckloads !skrg da bole lpskn rinduuu !!
okaay ,its 9 pm and i tink ..i wanna sleep rite nw .
my eyes are alr half open .
byebye .
Labels: is tis wat they call ..destiny ?
i totally forgot bout my saiful .haha !
so ,webcammed wit him after countdown .
ended it at around 4am .
so ,here are the pictures .

didnt celebrate countdown .
no frigging mood to celebrate it .
apple's twinny was the first to text me (:
very shocking indeed .haha .

Labels: fizah ., i miss you too
'O's is just few months away !
damn !it sent chills down my spine !
im aiming fr MI or POLY .
bt ,cn i reali make it ?
wit my poor math results ?
haiya !
im looking fr a tutor and maybe afiq gonna help me find one .
i hope khairul did not frget his promise to help me wit my math !
im gonna remind him today .
tkmo lupe ayeeer khairul .heh .
i nd to get used to sleeping again .
i hate tis part ,reali .
i haf been sleeping 6-9am in the morning .
how the fcuking hell am i gonna sleep early again .
nd some practice ,i guess -.-
i feel like changing my blogskin bt im just too lazy to browse .
heh .
will change soon ayeeer :D
ohh ,i dont tink im going fr countdown tis yr :(
nana has ask me to tag along wit her and hafiz fr countdown .
bt then ,i will be the lampost siaa .
i will feel very the awkward .
they are couple and im left with no partner .
so sad :(
furthermore more ,no mood fr countdown ar .
im always single on every countdown .
haiya ~~
so guys ,who want to be my boyfren please let me knw .
i will gif u a form fr u to fill .
cheyyy !
kida tk tahu malu siaa !
HAHAHAH !
im just joking oke !
Labels: what will be my resolution ?
guess wat i did whole night .
i haf been watching taiwan drama at youtube .
omg !i tink im falling in love wit taiwan drama and the guys !
and one of them is Wu Chun ^_^ !
he's so damn cute and hot hot heat !
there's another guy too bt sadly ,i dont knw his real name . ):
okay ,wanna continue watching video at youtube .
chao !
i had a great time !
reali ,i was giggling and laughing my guts out .
first we went to Bugis Junction followed by Iluma(lots of flashback at iluma ) .
then ,we off to Suntec Convention City (was hoping to bump into him again ,bt no .haha ) .
last ,we proceeded to Marina Flyers !
we had free Gelatos ,as always !haha !
i had withdrew $30 frm my accnt and i had used none .
they foot my bill all -.-
it irritates me alot coz wenever i wanna fork out money ,they wouldnt let me so .
their reasons were always the same .
"kau da teman aku kn ,so aku blanje kau k "-nana .
"kau tkya byr pape k .biar kite jek yg blanje kau .kau kn yg paling kecil "-afiq and yazid .
they made me feel so small -.-
sometimes ,i still love it though .hahah ! :p
errmm ..wat shall i update on ..
ohh ,yesterday we had a movie marathon .
i knocked off at 3 am while the rest at arnd 6 am ,i tink .
okaaay ,my mind is blank .
will upload the photos soon k .
Labels: i wanna go countdwn
I MISS MY LONG HAIR . :'(okaaay ,i cn hardly sleep now .
its 4 am and no one is sleeping nw .
everyone is doing their own thing .
some are downstairs ,watching tv .
while the rest are busy chatting away at the rooms ,upstairs .
mama bought new LCD tv as my superslim LG has gone kapoot . u haf no idea hw much i love the new tv in the living room .
i tink ..i nd to do some electronic shopping wit my mum .
i want to buy new camera ,new wardrobe and many many more !
yesterday ,me and my mum cleared our wardrobe .
onli den i realised hw much clothes i have and there's some still left untouch .
Zara shirt afiq gave me is still left hanging and untouch .
and i still have the cheek to say i lack of clothes .heh .
papa ,i want that rip curl bag .
buy fr me ,please ?
yes ,i spend the day at the town area .
i covered the WHOLE of orchard .
and trust me ,wen i say whole ,i mean all of the shopping centres at orchard .
we had pastamania for lunch !
hurhur !
my cravings has one less now .
haha !
at around 7 plus ,we headed to marina square followed by suntec .
u're nt gonna believe tis .
i bumped into M_K_ !!!
TWO FUGGING TIMES OKE !
oke ,im missing him ,now !
urrghh !
tot of buying donuts at suntec there .
sadly ,everything was sold out .
then ,teja recommended some kind of yoghurt mix wit cookies or smth .
it looked disgusting bt the taste was superb !
reached home at arnd 11 plus ,i tink ?
here are some pictures .


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