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Sunday, June 27, 2010
nak kahwin ?



dear Torres ,
why are you so cute ?
so cute that i feel like marrying you ,yknow ?
WILL YOU MARRY ME ?


you are hot but i guess i can only be your mistress since you have already marry Victoria .
I STILL LOVE YOU THOUGH :D

Tuesday, June 22, 2010
feeling inadequate .


because of you ,i have to go through this rocky journey .
because of you ,i have lose concentration in everything i do .
because of you ,i no longer know what is my focus in life .
its all because of you .yes ,you .

in the first place ,i shouldn't have let you enter into my life .
in the first place ,i shouldn't have let you steal my heart away .
in the first place ,i should have ignore you .

if i had known that our casual talks would first let to infatuation ,i would avoid you .
if i had known that this infatuation will soon make me feel attached to you ,i would ignored your txts .
if i had known that this whole thing would just hurt me ,i would not let myself fall for you .


it all starts with a smile ,grows with a kiss and end with a tear .

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Sunday, June 20, 2010


dear hair ,
i hope you could grow faster and longer .
im already missing my long hair .
pls fulfil this wish of mine .

Thursday, June 17, 2010


hai Dani Qalish .
i miss you .
i miss you very the much yknow .

Thursday, June 10, 2010
u have just won urself a room .





if i could reach up and hold a star for every time you made me smile ,the entire evening sky would be in the palm of my hand .

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Sunday, June 6, 2010
if only emotions were easy to choose .


you put me through many emotions .
why eh ?
can tell me the reason why ?
when one is in love ,one always begin by deceiving one's self ,and always ends by deceiving others .
bt wats worst ,one will always tend to deceive herself .
love takes off masks that we fear we cannot live without and know we cannot live within .
dear god ,
if you cn hear me ,pls give me your guidance .
show me the path i nd to choose .
and the decision i nd to make .
amin .

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Thursday, June 3, 2010
the reason why .


i hate you .
go away from me .
please go .
go before i love you more than i do in the past .
GO AWAY ,YOU JERK !
AND DONT EVER COME BACK INTO MY LIFE .

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Friday, May 21, 2010
bookworm


nowadays ,reading has been my daily routine .
when i say reading ,it does nt mean reading notes of the respective lessons i had in sch .
i mean reading novels ,be it in english or malay .
nothing will escape frm my hands .
im too engrossed in reading tat at times i tend to be ignorant of my surroundings .
a day without book made me feel very empty .very empty .
it has been my companion ,my entertainer .
well ,of course i love reading novels that involve love ,companion ,family and the sweet and bitter of life .
cos all this reflects my life one way or another .
well ,im a doodlebug now ! :D

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Sunday, May 16, 2010
cant keep holding on


There comes a time where each and everything has to be let go.It doesn't mean you'll never meet again to hold back onto it.What's meant to be, will be.
the past doesnt equal to the future .
im letting everything go and start afresh !

Sunday, May 9, 2010
and i wonder ..


few days back ,i had this dream .
a wonderful dream .
it seemed like i was in a paradise then .
with my loved one by my side ,always .
where he would pick me up from school almost everyday .
where we would go study together since both of us are taking our 'O's tis year .
where im proud to be in his heart .
i aint never had anyone make me feel tis way .
well ,whats most surprising was tat he is nt wat you guys he is (he is nt mika) .
wat i rmbr clearly ,was tat i have met him once .
and it onli took me tat one glance at him to make my heart beat very fast .

wat does this mean ?
is it supposed to be a cue tat my past memories is already fading from my heart ?
tat my love for my past is beginning to erase from my mind ?
tat what belongs to my past is being swayed by the waves ?
tat my burning love for my past is turining into ashes ?
wats the meaning behind this dream ?
it seems so real ,so realistic .

maybe its time ...

Sunday, April 11, 2010
what is stored in my heart .

"you ,kenape u cute ?"
"you ,ngah buat ape ?"
"you ,g tdo bodo ."
"you g flush hp you pat jamban pun baek .hahah !"
"you ,kenape kite ade eyebag ?"
"ohh ,patutla mate you rbak ehh .hahah !"
"ily !"
"hello .iffah ade .hahah !"
"cnfrm you nk i ltk phone ?"
"i tk tdo la nari .kn i nk jumpe you pag .tkut nant i tkle bgun ."
"nant kite buat candlelit dinner k .i beli 2 burger pat canteen ,u bawa 1 candle .beh kite jumpe pat bwh blk fr our dinner .heh ."
"you ,nyanyi pls ."
"you pendek siaa !tgk mcm i tinggi ."
"ehh i ade muscle ehh !hahah !"
"you ,sorry la .sorry tau ."
"you ,go and sleep la ."
"ohh menggatal eh ngan laki laen ."(in a joke manner )
"yakinla hanya i untuk you ."
"i rindu you sey ."
"klau i msuk lmbt ,u book i k ."
"goodnite ."

"gdnite" .tats the last word i heard frm him through the phone .
his words are still echoing in my head .
why cant i be wit him huh ??
imissyousoohhmuch .
you are killing me softly .

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Friday, April 9, 2010
picturesque .

aren't im pretty ?heh xD

i dont wanna be the girl who falls hard on the ground because she has fallen out of love and because she has screwed up her studies .

i would rather be the girl who has fallen out of love than the girl who screwed up her studies .

cos ,im used to falling out of love .in fact ,till nw ,im still left hanging in the middle of nowhere .nt knowing as to whether wait upon him or just move on with my life .

ohh well ,love matter dont bother me fr now and im glad its tat way .

cos rite nw wat bothers me the most is my studies .

im reali reali reali afraid of O lvl .

i reali reali reali reali pray and hope tat i could get good grades tat cn make me enter TP or SP .

ya'allah ,sekiranya engkau mendengar permintaan dan rayuan hambamu ini ,kurniakan la segala permintaan daku .amin .


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Sunday, March 21, 2010
i doubt i will frget you .

A SIMPLE UPDATE ON MY LIFE THROUGH PICTURES .






































































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Friday, March 5, 2010
happiness requires a lot of efforts .

updating for like .. a fucking long time .
school has been awfully stressful .
yes ,i'm having a hard time coping with my studies .
the accumulating homeworks day by day ,revisions ,lessons till almost dusk ,tests ,tution- all have been up to my neck .
to add on the burden , i still have 'O' lvl coming up in 7 months .
one word ;PRESSURIZING .
there are times where i would breakdown and cry .
i just cant control my emotions and nerves .
i reali cant .
sometimes ,i just wish tat i could let out all my feelings and emotions to someone who is tightly attach to my heart .
bt i guess tat wont be happening in these nearing months to 'o' lvl .
too busy to find someone special and too tired and lazy to entertain any of those .
anyway ,still cant erase tat prsn frm my mind and heart .
so ,why bother to find someone who cant possibly replace him .
come on kida ,just bear in mind tat 7 months will end before u knw it .
and tat u will have an excellent results fr 'o' which can get u into the of course of Law and Management .

SHARIFAH AKIDAH MOHAMED WILL GET GD GRADES FR O LEVEL ;BELOW 15 PTS .
HE LOVELY LADIES TOO .
WE WLL ALL GO TO THE SAME POLY .

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Monday, February 22, 2010
suprised bday party .

last sat had a surprised bday party which i had no idea of it at all .
they tricked me into playing blindfolded game .
and i was like a moron sitting there waiting fr the cue to start the match .
suddenly ,i heard violin and acoustic guitar being played and people singing the bday song .
there it is ,a cake with my "lady gaga " photo attached on it .
well ,there's a story why people labelled tat photo as the "lady gaga " photo .
afterwhich ,i was called to sit beside my cousin while he played a melodic song wit his violin .

things i got overall fr my bday
  • ripcurl wallet .
  • a blue dress frm Zara boutique .
  • puma shoe .
  • Topshop $40 voucher .
  • cash $30 .
  • necklace .
  • an elephant soft toy .
  • a belt frm Cotton On .
  • candies .

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Wednesday, February 17, 2010
TERIMA KASIH !




I WANT TO THANK ALL MY FRIENDS AND THOSE WHO WISHED ME TODAY .
I APPRECIATE IT A WHOLE LOT .
ESPECIALLY MY LOVELY LADIES WHO BOUGHT ME CAKE (:
THANK YOU .
SAYAAAANG KRG BYK2 !
YOU GUYS MAKE THE MUNDANE WEDNESDAY INTO A SPECIAL DAY .
YOU REALI DO (:
YOU GUYS REALI MAKE MY DAAAY :D
THANK YOU .
APPARENTLY ,THOSE WHO I DIDNT EXPECT TO RMBR MY BDAY WISHED ME !
YEAY !HAHAH .
OKAAY ,TIS YR RAFHAN DIDNT WISH ME .
THEREFORE ,IM FEELING A LITTLE BIT DOWN .
I GUESS I MISS HIM LA HORH .
NEHMIND ~
THANK YOU ONCE AGAIN !




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Wednesday, January 27, 2010
charitable chan .

let it all fly high up in the sky .
school was okaay .
bt ,im starting to become like a pig ,again .
all i did was eat ,do hw ,sleep den go school .
i have nt been going out fr the whole of January !
do you get wat it mean ?!
it means tat tis Saturdaaaay i have to wind up !!
jyeaah !going out wit Bimbo tis sat .
at the same time ,we gonna buy books and assesments for our upcoming tuition which officially start next fri (5/2/10) .
credit goes to Afiq who recommended his friend to coach us .
ohh ,im craving fr donuts !
so bimbo ,lets go eat donuts tis Sat ayeeer ^_^ .

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Sunday, January 24, 2010
u were once my limelight .

u were my hero back then .

well ,nothing significant been happening .
last friday bumped into this ex of mine (:
did some catching up and all .
he gt 19 points fr his 'O' .
ass him -.-
haha .
he's a good guy ,im the bad girl .
im the one tat broke his heart :/
bt hey !we are still friends oke :P
and im glad we still do .

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Monday, January 18, 2010
bracing up the cold night .

all i hope for is for you to find me who's lost along the journey .

well ,slacked wit nana ,nyimas ,halifi and sayyid just nw .

fyra went back home to take her tights coz she's too old to rmbr bringing it -.- .

den ,saw my sweetheart Rara (:

i was like "Rara !!!! "*den waved at her like a mad girl * .

heh ,i just missed her truckloads ! :D

its been ages since we last meet .

and yeah ,nana and nyimas tot i was waving at those "lifespirit" clique .

hell no !hello !am i tat blind as to wave at them ?!

stop it siaa krg .hahah !


to you ,i still love you though .
bt watever it is ,be happy wit tat prsn yah .
as lng as you're happy ,im happy .
to love you is to see u happy and smile .
tats all i need .

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Sunday, January 17, 2010
wat i desires for .

I HAVE BEEN CRAVING FOR RIPCURL WALLET !SO TUN TEJAH ,U KNW WAT U SHOULD BUY FR ME FOR MY BDAE .I WANT TIS PRESENT FRM YOU ALONE .NO SHARING OF MONEY WIT OTHER PEOPLE OKAAY !
DONT WORI ,ITS NT TAT EXPENSIVE :D






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obsession

hello panda ^^
okaay ,i guess apple disagree wit my statement on the previous post .
bt hey !its true oke !
there's someone out there who loves you :P
heh .

anw ,chat wit my long lost fren ,Fathin Aerlisa .
Gosh !miss her truckloads !
she's cute ,just like me :P
and and !she gt A1 fr her malay o lvl !
happy fr u my dear (:

TO RARA ,I MISS YOU TOO !A WHOLE LOTS :(


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Friday, January 15, 2010
shorty is wat the guys call me .

I HATE AHMAD NURSHANIQ FOR LAUGHING AT MY HEIGHT !
I KNOW U ARE TALLER THAN ME .
PFFFT .
TAT IDIOTIC RAFIQ IS ASLO CALLING ME 'SHORTY' .
HW SAD IS TAT .

am i reali tat short ?
no right ?

momento .

hey ,i knw i haf nt update fr quite a while .

sorry for that .
been busy wit school lately .
yeah ,believe it or nt ,i haf been an obedient and hardworking girl who does her work all the time .
tis yr ,im gonna haf a clean record wit all the teachers .
except fr the fact tat i was caught fr my coloured hair -.-
surprisingly ,i haf been awfully hardworking in doing my maths work !
thumbs up ! :D
well ,its nt only me but the whole class !
i tink ,one of the reason is tat we love our maths teacher too much ^_^

put school aside ,i shall talk bout my life nw .
i tink ,i no longer need a guy in my life ,fr nw .
coz being in love means hurt .
and i cant stomach the pains i haf to go through after being wounded .
no ,im nt a strong girl .
my love life is nt as beautiful and as wonderful it seemed to be .
maybe ..im nt as lucky as nana ,nyimas or even fyra .
they each haf a guy to love them .
yet ,i dont even feel downhearted .
i knw tat i haf exhausted all my love to someone .
love expect no returns .
and i haf always believe tat the moments captured wit the loved one is the most priceless gift fr me .
i haf no regrets .




the beginning of eternity ,
the end of time and space ,
the beginning of every end ,
and the end of every place .

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Monday, January 11, 2010
post fr today .

today ,'O' lvl results are out .
and we ,the graduating classes attended it so tat we cn look at the expressions of students taking their results .
congrats to AINI ,who haf gotten 16 points .
she must be super duper elated ! :D

and ,we had height and weight measurement .
i didnt grow at all :(
i cheated just now ,i tiptoed .
still ,my height is only 159cm .
how sad is tat .
haiyak !
the most depressing part is tat i gained 3 fucking kg !
see wat happens wen all u did was rotting at home like a pig !
now ,i reali feel like a pig -.-
i tink ..i will start working out wit afiq since he will be having his IPPT on Feb .
so afiq ,lets start tis Saturday ,pleaseeee .

now ,chatting wit Adil and Zainul .
tis idiotic adil made me mad ,whole time .
he cheated my feelings ! :(
he knws ,i knw bt public dont knw .
and nw im very very the sad yknw .
tendang kau baru tahu .
hahah !
and zainul says i look cute wit short hair :P

thurday ,friday .

THURSDAY(07/1/2010) ,

went to parkway parade wit mum ,bro and afiq .
bought few things there .
bought 2 portable DVD players fr our cars since dad asked to .
afterwhich ,went to giant the mighty ,giant saving !hehhehh .
bought grocery stuffs .
bro and i each bought fbt short and shirt !
hehhehehehh ^^



pictures of us sitting in front of the office the whole day .







FRIDAY (08/1/2010) ,
basically ,me ,apple ,nana ,wan ,ahlina and sme of our classmates did nothing .
all we did was sit ,talk ,laugh ,walk ,talk ,laugh ,talk ,laugh and it went on and on .
yes ,we just sat in front of the office ,guarding it -.-
thx to our rooster hair tat made the DM feel like picking on us -.-
we escaped at 11.45 am .
our dear chemistry teacher smuggled us to the chem lab .
i just love her !
no ,we just love her ! ^^
she saved the day :D
(pictures above)

Thursday, January 7, 2010
boredom

okaay ,im bored .
didnt attend school today .heh .
i woke up fresh and vibrant today !
anw ,dad gave me $54 today !
i was jumping on my feet until he said tat he took $14 frm my piggybank .
so ,tat $54 include the money he took frm my piggybank -.-
ass him .haha !
bt ,nehmind .
my profit is still big .
and and !the clothes i bought online has arrived !
wooohooo !
i especially love the purple dress ^_^ !
there's a total of 5 clothes .
mum planning to buy online ,again .
i will take tis chance into my hands !
so mum ,dont blame me if ur pocket has a hole in it .heh :P

happy birthday ,fauzi !

yesterday was apple's twinny birthday .
HAPPY 16th FAUZI (:
da besar eh die .haha .
finally ,he's able to watch nc16 movie .
next will be apple .
den ,will be my turn .heheh .
cheers for the friendship we build fr the past 2 yrs plus !

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Tuesday, January 5, 2010
happy bithday ,aini !

see the beautiful auntie beside me ?
its her bdae today !
HAPPY 17th BITHDAY TO YOU ,AINI ! :D
be happy and cheerfool always yah !
she's my lovely lady .
any one mess wit her ,means tat prsn is messing wit me too !
SAYAAAAANG KAU BANYAK2 SEKALI ! :D

Monday, January 4, 2010
school season


wake up call in the morning !!
school has officially open today (4/1/2010) .
yesterday ,i can onli close my eyes at 3 am and i haf to wake at 6 am . -.-
and tat khairul texted me saying "selamat sekolah !wakakaka !" .
ohh ,mentang-mentang da graduate ,nk kerek eh ..
tendang baru tahuu .idiot .hahha !
yeah ,i dread going to school bt tat attitude wont last tat long .
wanna knw whyy ?
coz someone dearly to me is still in tis sch and maybe graduate on the same yr . ^_^
finally ,i get to meet my lovely ladie again .
i miss them truckloads !skrg da bole lpskn rinduuu !!
okaay ,its 9 pm and i tink ..i wanna sleep rite nw .
my eyes are alr half open .
byebye .

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Sunday, January 3, 2010
saiful saiful saiful

pardon me fr being so forgetful .
i totally forgot bout my saiful .haha !
so ,webcammed wit him after countdown .
ended it at around 4am .
so ,here are the pictures .








countdown ,no .

since sedare aku yg cute tu srh kida update blog ,i shall then update it .
didnt celebrate countdown .
no frigging mood to celebrate it .
apple's twinny was the first to text me (:
very shocking indeed .haha .


(see above picture )
though i didnt go fr countdwn ,i celebrated it wit my lil sweetheart ,fizah ,through msn (:
she said she misses me ,alot !
she miss sleeping wit me too ! :D
aww ,i miss you too syg !

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Wednesday, December 30, 2009
it just sucks

school is opening real fucking soon horh !
'O's is just few months away !
damn !it sent chills down my spine !
im aiming fr MI or POLY .
bt ,cn i reali make it ?
wit my poor math results ?
haiya !
im looking fr a tutor and maybe afiq gonna help me find one .
i hope khairul did not frget his promise to help me wit my math !
im gonna remind him today .
tkmo lupe ayeeer khairul .heh .
i nd to get used to sleeping again .
i hate tis part ,reali .
i haf been sleeping 6-9am in the morning .
how the fcuking hell am i gonna sleep early again .
nd some practice ,i guess -.-

i feel like changing my blogskin bt im just too lazy to browse .
heh .
will change soon ayeeer :D

ohh ,i dont tink im going fr countdown tis yr :(
nana has ask me to tag along wit her and hafiz fr countdown .
bt then ,i will be the lampost siaa .
i will feel very the awkward .
they are couple and im left with no partner .
so sad :(
furthermore more ,no mood fr countdown ar .
im always single on every countdown .
haiya ~~
so guys ,who want to be my boyfren please let me knw .
i will gif u a form fr u to fill .
cheyyy !
kida tk tahu malu siaa !
HAHAHAH !
im just joking oke !

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Tuesday, December 29, 2009
taiwan guys are hot !

its alr 6 plus am and im still nt sleeping .
guess wat i did whole night .
i haf been watching taiwan drama at youtube .
omg !i tink im falling in love wit taiwan drama and the guys !
and one of them is Wu Chun ^_^ !
he's so damn cute and hot hot heat !
there's another guy too bt sadly ,i dont knw his real name . ):
okay ,wanna continue watching video at youtube .
chao !

Monday, December 28, 2009
walking marathon

had a day out wit nana and the two idiots ,afiq and yazid .
i had a great time !
reali ,i was giggling and laughing my guts out .
first we went to Bugis Junction followed by Iluma(lots of flashback at iluma ) .
then ,we off to Suntec Convention City (was hoping to bump into him again ,bt no .haha ) .
last ,we proceeded to Marina Flyers !
we had free Gelatos ,as always !haha !
i had withdrew $30 frm my accnt and i had used none .
they foot my bill all -.-
it irritates me alot coz wenever i wanna fork out money ,they wouldnt let me so .
their reasons were always the same .
"kau da teman aku kn ,so aku blanje kau k "-nana .
"kau tkya byr pape k .biar kite jek yg blanje kau .kau kn yg paling kecil "-afiq and yazid .
they made me feel so small -.-
sometimes ,i still love it though .hahah ! :p

errmm ..wat shall i update on ..
ohh ,yesterday we had a movie marathon .
i knocked off at 3 am while the rest at arnd 6 am ,i tink .

okaaay ,my mind is blank .
will upload the photos soon k .

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Friday, December 25, 2009
bored bored bored

I MISS MY LONG HAIR . :'(
okaaay ,i cn hardly sleep now .
its 4 am and no one is sleeping nw .
everyone is doing their own thing .
some are downstairs ,watching tv .
while the rest are busy chatting away at the rooms ,upstairs .
mama bought new LCD tv as my superslim LG has gone kapoot . u haf no idea hw much i love the new tv in the living room .
i tink ..i nd to do some electronic shopping wit my mum .
i want to buy new camera ,new wardrobe and many many more !
yesterday ,me and my mum cleared our wardrobe .
onli den i realised hw much clothes i have and there's some still left untouch .
Zara shirt afiq gave me is still left hanging and untouch .
and i still have the cheek to say i lack of clothes .heh .


papa ,i want that rip curl bag .
buy fr me ,please ?


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burung da terlps dari sangkar

finally !i went out on christmas eve wit my bitchy cousy ,teja !
yes ,i spend the day at the town area .
i covered the WHOLE of orchard .
and trust me ,wen i say whole ,i mean all of the shopping centres at orchard .
we had pastamania for lunch !
hurhur !
my cravings has one less now .
haha !
at around 7 plus ,we headed to marina square followed by suntec .
u're nt gonna believe tis .
i bumped into M_K_ !!!
TWO FUGGING TIMES OKE !
oke ,im missing him ,now !
urrghh !
tot of buying donuts at suntec there .
sadly ,everything was sold out .
then ,teja recommended some kind of yoghurt mix wit cookies or smth .
it looked disgusting bt the taste was superb !
reached home at arnd 11 plus ,i tink ?
here are some pictures .




























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